What Happened to Me in Brazil 2014? Finally the Full Story

Most everyone who goes to see John of God in Abadiania, Goias, Brasil, is going there under some set up arranged by his Higher Self designed to take him up a notch in his development. There are extraordinary, creative forces in Abadiania that are capable of taking us up towards awakening through healing, vision quest, or other paranormal ways. Usually these forces work through a set of miraculous happenings that are perceived as “holy” or sacred. (My first two trips could be viewed that way.) But apparently, sometimes these forces work in a confrontational manner which is perceived, at least at first, to be hostile. That would characterize my third visit last year. I have taken my time to write about this last experience because I could only view it dualistically at first and this I did not consider helpful for others. I have had to look at the experience much more deeply to come to a non-dualistic perspective. Maintaining a perspective of duality forever as a final explanation means that both good and evil are eternal, that something real can indeed be threatened, that the ground of all Being is indeed shaky, and that eternal Love can change to eternal hate. I will not have anything to do with promulgating such a perspective.  However, if you have been following my Facebook postings, I have been dropping little hints about my non-dual conclusions: (1) The irrefutable conclusions of Quantum Physics that no external objective world exists, that we, as centers of consciousness, create our reality; (2) That the psycho-spiritual mechanics of our creation is projection. Whatever fear or unforgiveness that seems to be in my mind, will be projected outwards and I will see an external world that is hostile and attacking me; (3) That our Higher Self, Spirit Guides and Angels, work to give us learning dramas to show us what is holding back our journey up the ladder of awareness and awakening. Most often these learning events are beyond the awareness of our little “selves,” our egos.  When we find our self trapped in a dualistic view of what is happening, we have lost our connection to Truth. We have forgotten to take responsibility for our experience. We have forgotten that we can discover something important about our own needs within these experiences; (4) That our High Self often works with ETs (EBEs) in these learning experiences, and in doing so the ETs simply view themselves as helping us in our dramas, and in so doing, giving us a boost up in our development; (5) And finally that the ETs ask us to take responsibility for what we are creating when we experience them as objectively hostile.

Dr. Steven Greer, today’s leader in ETs and UFOs, has shown that when Vedic meditations are used to cleanse the mind, experiences of EBEs (Extraterrestrial biological entities) are always friendly, elevated and spiritually advanced. He has some amazing pictures of EBEs greeting his team. The view that some EBEs are objectively evil is a dualistic illusion!

 

I was not thinking about a return to John of God in late 2014. I was busy following specific instructions from my guides in creating huge, shamanic necklaces, stone for stone, item by item. They had a tremendous helping effect when I did clearings. They helped me to connect very quickly with higher dimensions and to hear my guides very clearly.  The only thing in my mind concerning John of God was a feeling that I should have gotten more out of the two experiences I had at Abadiania. I felt like something was holding me back from going up the spiral and I wanted to know what that was. Then I thought of going back to Abadiania again in 2014, taking along my newly created crystal necklaces and having John bless them while I was there.  I decided to go back to Abadiania and stay the month of December.

 

I arrived in Abadiania Monday, Dec the 8th, and immediately noticed that the vibration felt lower than last year. I thought perhaps that it was I who had changed and a little of the magic had worn off for me. I didn´t think too much more about it. I was definitely still jet lagged when I went to the Casa Wed. but it seemed like a good day, lots of people coming to seek healing. Dr. Augusto came out on the stage and did a few operations. But let me backtrack to Monday and Tuesday. I brought with me three very high vibrational Shamanic necklaces which hook me straight in to my guides. I need this extra speed interdimensional internet when I am doing clearings in the work of a medium. I brought them down because I thought it would be nice to have Joao bless them!!!

 

They are very strong, high vibrational mechanisms. The huge, main one, to which the other two are linked and programmed, is so big and so impressive that I don´t wear it. At best I would be showing off; at worst I would be frightening people who might think I was crazy. I kept it here in the closet. But I wore the other two around town and on the Casa campus, Mon. and Tuesday before our first meeting Wed. Usually people comment on how beautiful they are, but here I was getting some very strange remarks from people, like, `Very interesting necklace…very pagan looking.’ That type remark kept coming at me. I also began to get some mediumistic perception that the Casa spirits did not like my necklace. I wore one of the necklaces to Casa meetings, Wed. and Thurs. and again got a definite sense that the Casa spirits did not like them. As I went before Joao incorporated Wed. wearing my necklace, he almost scowled at me, and he prescribed no herbs for me. Thursday, I went back to the Casa for the afternoon meeting and did not go before Joao, but my sense continued that the Casa spirits did not like my necklace or me.

 

Thursday during Casa service I noticed that I could not connect with my guides nor dowse. This immediately caught my attention.  I was, at that point, in duality. Something seemed to be happening TO me and I seemed to be separate from it as a victim. It seemed that a dampening field had been set up to block my connection into spirit. It seemed that my high vibration was sensed as an intrusion, or a threat that could attack them. I went to bed Thurs. night and had some difficulty in getting to sleep. When I awakened Friday morning I knew that I had been attacked psychically. I awakened to find that I was not all there. My Etheric body had been taken but I knew how to pray to get it back. Someone had taken me a part and hung me out to dry. This was attempted murder, not some little attempt to scare me. They had also taken my energy. I got that back. They had installed a snooper bug so that they could hear everything I said to my guides. I dismantled that. I put on a necklace and gradually reconnected to my guides. I asked the Creator of All that is, my spirit guides and angels and all my healing team to contact the Casa spirits and convince them that I was not a threat to them, and to cease their attacks. I hoped that they got through to them. But I realized that I needed to be checked out by my senior colleague medium. It is hard to clear oneself and so much had been done to me. I tried to call my colleague in the States and the phone would not dial the numbers. I sensed that the Casa spirits were still blocking me and did not want me to contact my colleague. So I got one of the office girls to dial the number. That time it went through easily. I went over all of this with my colleague and she dowsed and got the same answers. There were a few acts of sabotage that I had not caught and so she finished putting me back together.

 

The next day I tried to call my colleague in the States but the call would not go through. The phone I used the previous night was completely dead. I got another phone and it called her but I could not hear anything. They really didn’t want me talking to her. I was deep into a dualistic experience. I could not see myself as responsible for the experience I was creating. I did not have the perspective that this was a lesson given to me for my own inquiry about what was holding me back.  My perception was that I was under attack by Reptilian and Grey ETs who wanted to get the codes in my necklace which were also in my Etheric body. I knew I had to get out of Abadiania and left as soon as I could.  But it ended up taking me several days to change my flight back to Vancouver. During those days I experienced intense psychic attacks. I did not experience them as lessons for my benefit. I did not physically see any Reptilian ETS. It was a clairsentient experience. But I suspect they were in a ship overhead because that is what they said earlier. About twenty years ago, an ET had incorporated into John and said, “Wherever John is there is a mothership overhead and scout ships are sent out.” Two years ago, a friend of mine got photos of two scout ships coming into the area behind the Casa.

 

I arrived back in Vancouver traumatized with a perception that I still had a psychic link to the Reptilians. At one point I seriously considered going to my doctor and telling her that I had experienced a psychotic break in Brazil.  But I did not. A deeper part of me guided my mind to look at the experience in a different way.  If “projection makes perception,” what was there in me that I had projected to give myself such a negative experience?  I looked at the terrifying experiences I had under the psychic attacks. They appeared to have something symbolic to communicate. They all referred to people and events which were keys in my life and which required many years for me to be able to forgive. But that was the point. I HAD forgiven them. They were not the reason for my projection or for my lesson regarding what was holding me back in my progress. Then I saw that all the psychic attacks (so called) were symbolic presentations to my mind of some key forgiveness I had withheld. I had never forgiven MYSELF for something I regarded as a key failure in my life and I had covered it up from myself. That repressed truth was that which was holding back my progress. Then I remembered what ACIM teaches us. “If we are using perception to justify our own mistakes–our anger, our impulses to attack, our lack of love in whatever form it may take–we will see a world of evil, destruction, malice, envy and despair. All this we must learn to forgive, not because we are being ‘good’ and ‘charitable,’ but because what we are seeing is not true. We have distorted the world by our twisted defenses, and are therefore seeing what is not there.” (ACIM, Preface)

The way in which I could forgive others, seeing them as role players in my drama, I could also use to forgive myself. I had a role to play in my life and I was (am) not the role any more than others were their roles. I could forgive “Joe” for what I held against him as unforgivable. Then I saw the beauty of what had taken place for my benefit. My Higher Self had created a role playing experience for me using the creative forces in Abadiania. It built the necklaces in such a way that they sent out a signal to whatever creative forces there are in Abadiania. If they were really ETs, the ETS gladly helped by taking their place in the drama I was creating. They used their psychic abilities to give me the experiences I needed to unlock the secrets I had hidden from myself. My Higher Self was making sure I got the answer to my serious question, what is holding me back? It had nothing to do with John of God. It was all about helping me!! I was given the virtual experiences I needed. If there were actual ETs involved, I thank them! I also thank all my other partners in learning during this experience!!!!  But wait just a minute. I went down there to discover what was keeping me back from going up the ladder of consciousness back to God. It was not simply lack of forgiveness for something I held against myself. The terrible world of attack that I projected was the result of my coming into contact with the repressed belief that I have–that you and all of us have–that I have in Truth broken off from God, stolen the crown jewels of Heaven, so to speak, and am now on the lamb from an angry god who wants to annihilate me! So I hide in a body where I think He cannot find me. I hide in an ego world I projected, all the time keeping out of my mind the original terror of the belief I have separated from God. That TERROR in Abadiania was the manifestation of my holding of the original terror of separation, from which I normally hide. My Higher Self was giving me a full answer to my question regarding what is holding me back? THIS BELIEF that I have indeed separated from God, now denied and repressed deep within the mind, was brought to the surface where I made it manifest in the world I created there in Abadiania!! None of it was REAL.

 

You can see now how important it was for me to take my time in discerning these lessons. If I had stopped with a dualistic interpretation I would have learned nothing and projected more illusion. ANY INTERPRETATION WHICH TELLS US TO FIGHT SOME EXTERNAL EVIL IS DUALISTIC ILLUSION!!!  If you have been abducted by ETs and all you learned was that you need to fight against the “evil” ETs, then you have learned nothing. Don’t be surprised if they take you again! They view themselves as assisting you in your drama and ask you why you are not taking responsibility for what you are creating? It is something within YOU that makes you perceive the ETs as evil. That is the point. Whatever is holding you back from climbing Jacob’s Ladder is within YOU!

Just so, I have nothing to say about John of God. Plenty is being said, for and against him. He is a lightning rod for perception. However, I have reached some conclusions about my last experience in Abadiania which may be helpful to others: Underlying all these conclusions is the one big fact that we hold in our minds the original tiny mad idea that we have separated from God and are now separate and on the lamb from Him. All perception stems from this mistake in thought. All perception is illusion!!!!!!

 

(1) Humans must begin to understand that their consciousness is “creating” the human/alien event they conceive of as dualistic. If they are not aware of this, their “creation” is quite likely to be negative and cast the ETs in “bad”/”evil” roles within their creation. The aliens simply see themselves as helping us by being a part of our drama that we are creating and giving us a jump up in evolution.

(2) ETs view their part in our creativity thusly: to read our minds, determine the goals we have set for ourselves in our mental creations, and our over-all spiritual evolution, and assist us with them by providing virtual characters and situations which are helpful with these over-all goals.
(3) ETs seen thusly, are energetic nodes of possible evolutionary jumps that transcend the dualistic description of good or evil.
(4) Where humans have not transcended dualistic frames of reference–good/evil, heavenly/demonic, helpful/hurtful, et al, –the human experience with ETs becomes locked into the mind with traditional repression/denial techniques, often requiring professional assistance to retrieve repressed data and discover a deeper, non-dualistic lesson.
(5) Human/ET encounters offer an enormous potential for Human growth.
(6) Dr. Steven Greer has shown that when the minds of human participants are substantially free of dualism through meditation, that the experiences then that follow with ETs is not only “good,” but reality enhancing for both humans and ETs.  First non dualistic contact has been made and it is very good!!!!
(7) If you have had what appears to you to be a negative abduction experience with ETs, look what is in your own mind. Why did you create that? What can you learn from the virtual events the ETs gave you? What major (Higher Self) issues are you working on that could have given you the need to create the experience as you did? Can you now see the “terror” (if you experienced that from the ETs) to be something symbolically representing what you have not forgiven within yourself and which you are projecting outward? Your ability to see past dualistic categories is essential to come to peace and inner development. A Course in Miracles is constructed in such a way that it does not bring to our mind the terror of the original mistake in thought too soon. It would engender too much fear!!! I can vouch for that!! Rather, by the usage of the Workbook for Students, it takes us by the hand and slowly introduces us to what we have done, and then shows us how to undo the thought, still the mind, and listen to the voice of the inner Teacher. This is a far better way! Namaste!

 

Joe at Johns-1a

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Which Option Do You Choose?

If I were speaking to a room full of a hundred people interested in spirituality and I said this to them, how would they respond? How would you respond? So here is the speech.

Were I to tell you that you could choose one of these options which one would it be?

One option would be that you as an individual do not truly exist. Instead you are a part of the Mind of God, undifferentiated, you are a part of the Light of God. You are part of the Ocean of God’s Love. You are just as God, spirit, not physical and you are not an individual, distinct, unique, with plans and goals of your own. You are a part of God, which is all-encompassing Love and Light for all eternity.

The other option would be that you ARE an individual and you are unique with your own opportunities to prove yourself. You have a soul which will live forever as an individual, but while you are on Earth, you sing the song, “I did it MY way.” The universe is a real artifact separate from you and you as a unique individual get to go out and explore it! Go to shopping malls! Buy new jeans! Get a car. Buy a house. Marry a hot guy or girl!

These are the two options. Which one would you choose? (I have actually done this so I know what happens! smile emoticon ) Most people pick the second option and as a reason they say, “It sounds boring to just be a part of God’s Light for all eternity.” Some people say, with a defiant tone, “I AM an individual, UNIQUE, and I can be whatever I want to be. Who cares about God!!” There may be one or two people who will choose the first option!!

From the point of view of A Course in Miracles, this shows how our minds have accepted the idea of separation. The Course tells us that the Son of God made the same mistake! He fell into a little dream that somehow he could be different from His Father. This all happened in the mind. There was no world yet. But when the idea came to him, he forgot to laugh at it. He took it seriously and that is the first split of the mind from Oneness. The Son now thinks he is outside of Heaven observing God and into his mind there come two voices: the first one is loud and brash. “Look what you have done? You have left Heaven! God gave you everything and you have just spit in his face! You have stolen the crown jewels. You have SINNED against your Father and do you think he is going to let you get away with this!!! He is going to hunt you down like the dirty dog you are and he is going to annihilate you! So you better scram, get out of here as fast and as far as you can and hide!”

The second voice is calm and quiet. It says, “Nothing has in truth happened. You just fell into a little dream. You can wake up now.” The first loud voice we will call the “ego” and the second quiet voice we will call the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit counsels the sleeping Son just to wake up and find himself as he must forever be, a part of Heaven sharing the Mind of Christ with his father. For some reason we will never know, the Son chose to believe the ego and when he did he chose the emotions of the ego; fear, sin and guilt. So the Son runs out of his mind, so to speak, and dreams (though he thinks he creates it) a physical universe which he enters by the Big Bang. But after the Big Bang, the Son splits into zillions and zillions of pieces of stuff: star dust, matter, planets, star systems, and life forms, including you and me. The Son would have lost all memory of his true state were it not for the fact that the Holy Spirit came with him into this universe as a memory of truth. Now each life form thinks itself independent and separated just as the ego thought caused it. The Course tells us that the body was made as a place God could enter not! The dreaming Son, made insane by the lies of the ego, now fears himself to be an individual, separated from God, living out a life based on sin, fear and guilt. Part of the ego’s lies makes him believe he is forever separate, forever UNIQUE, forever his own person, that this physical universe is his home and that he is A BODY, not a mind or a spirit. The ego creates worlds of special people, unique people, good people, bad people and tells his “creation” that duality is just the way things ARE. “It’s a tough world out there. You gotta get yours! I got mine!” The ego’s thought system rules the world it made:

specialness, good and bad
uniqueness for the individual
the body as the altar of “truth”—shopping malls, modern life, the pop world, the good world, the bad world. Conflict, war, aggression, depression et al–these all come from the ego’s thought system of separation.

So you can see why most people take the second option!!! It is the fall-out from the Son’s original mistake (IN HIS DREAM ONLY; It could never happen in Truth). Nothing real can be threatened! The Son cannot truly be different from his father. He cannot be an individual and hide in a body! That’s just a bad dream!!!. The way to awakening from the dream is to treat each other as brothers, to look for what we have in common, without proclaiming our “uniqueness,” which is a real illusion; to forgive some individuals who you think have wronged you, because it has not really happened in God’s world. As we forgive, we cast away grievances we have held; we begin to show more Light from the inside. We begin to be the Light of the world. We see ourselves as spirit, not bodies, and we hear the call to go Home to our true reality. We get weary of being individuals. We just want peace and Love. We have been running from a god we created out of our ego minds. We begin to feel the tug of Home pulling at us, like we were little kids and had been away at camp for a month, but now we just want to hug our mom or dad and drink hot chocolate. We HAVE been in this dream a long time and we do yearn to go home. In the time it has taken you to read this, perhaps you will revise your choice of the two options. Maybe somebody will break through and say “YES, I want option number ONE. I want to go back into that ocean of Love that is my Home. I will gladly hand over this silly little idea of Joe Shore as a unique individual and rejoin Oneness!

NOW THE GREAT PART is that this has already happened in Truth. It all got resolved in an instant in eternity, but now that resolution is playing itself out through the billions of years of “Time.” So NOW, we can do what the Son forgot to do, LAUGH at the silly, mad idea, that any part of God could break off and observe the Whole, outside of which is nothing; LAUGH that any part of God could hide in a body! LAUGH at the thought that you could be an individual and find something more interesting to be than GOD!!! grin emoticon grin emoticon grin emoticon grin emoticon grin emoticon grin emoticon grin emoticon grin emoticon grin emoticon grin emoticon grin emoticon grin emoticon grin emoticon

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Gratefulness

Gratefulness is one of the gifts of awareness. It is given to those who know silence and encounter the Holy Instant. Gratefulness remakes our perception. Where once we saw a sinful world, gratefulness shows us the children of God, lost as in a dream, perhaps, but sons of God nonetheless. Gratefulness remakes us from the inside out. In gratefulness we would find the ability to let loose old grievances we have held. How long we have held them and clung to them as though they were precious gifts, but now the tears of awareness come and show us the hurt that confused our minds. We can let go now. Every grievance we held against others was an attack on God, as surely as though we were storming the Kingdom with the deeds of war. Thank God, none of our attacks on God, can change Him. The Love that He is cannot be threatened. It cannot be avoided either, for there is no place in Truth where this Love is not. It is all-encompassing just as His will is all-encompassing and will be done. His Will is that you be just as you were created by Him. Made of His Love, sharing Himself to make you, you are a chip off the old block. You and I are the Love of God. That is all we are! Everything else is a little dream we fell into and stayed there but an instant. And now, in this Holy Instant, we have remembered who we are and must forever be. We are the Love and Light of God. When we have all remembered, the world will vanish as the illusion we made as a place that God could enter not, and we will find ourselves, not as bodies, but as rays of Light in the corona of God’s Presence. But for this moment, languor a while in gratefulness that your fears were wrong, that the world is not a terrible place where tortured and wounded creatures come to die. Bathe a while in this gratefulness and be remade.

Father we are coming Home. So long have we been lost in this dream of separateness. So long have we clung to little dreams of sin, fear and guilt. We are as your little children Father, your little toddlers who wandered into a fearful land and grew up almost forgetting you, almost forgetting who we are. But we could not forget your Love for we are made of it, and we had to see it sometime. We are coming up your steps Father as fast as our little toddler feet can carry us, longing now only for your embrace and our eternal Home.

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I Would Be Your Son Today, Father

We all start out this life full of hope and the strength of youth. We never start out intending to hurt someone. We never think of failure. We are filled with the energy of becoming and that is as it should be. But along the way, we do make mistakes, and people end up getting hurt. If we are fortunate, we will have friends to encourage us and urge us on to new sights. When the autumn season comes to your life, it seems like the whole journey has taken only about five minutes! You look back with some remorse and wonder what good have I really done? How much love did I really put into this world? And with that question, a list comes to your mind of all the people who were brought to you so that you could help them. So many names on that list….and so many you (and I) failed to help. Before winter comes we must make up for lost time and love like we have never loved before. Every soul that is sent to you that you might help them, cherish, and stay pure. Love them so…Love them with all the love you can channel. “Yes Father, I would be your Son today and carry your love to all who are lost and foundering in this world. Forgive me all my illusions today Father, for I would be your Son and extend only your Love to all my brothers.”

 

Urban Prisoners Without Hope

I was a social worker in New York City for two years and I worked in the slums. About 3 million people live under the poverty line in NYC and many of them live in slums that defy description. For one year I was a protective diagnostic caseworker for abused and neglected children. I was the one who went to the homes and investigated abuse and neglect and removed the child when necessary. This stressful job took quite a toll on people. The average caseworker lasted three months on the job! I lasted a year. The next year I was an undercare social worker and had custody of a caseload of about twenty children who had been removed from their homes because of abuse or neglect and were living with foster parents. I saw masses of people trapped in New York as if it were a prison.

When the movie Escape from New York came out I went down to a movie theatre downtown Manhattan near Times Square. It was like a group interaction event. People definitely empathized with being trapped in New York. Where people view themselves as being in prison, they will view the police as prison guards, and the situation fulfills itself when police ACT like prison guards. I have seen things I hope no one has to see again. I KNOW what the Afro-American community in Baltimore is feeling. I sympathize with them. But the problem is that most Americans do not want to empathize. They just want the problem to go away. While I was a social worker we had 100,000 homeless people living on the sidewalks. People just stepped over them and went on their way. Then one day, the police came in vans and trucks and all of a sudden those 100,000 people were no longer there? Where did they take them? We have a police crisis in North America because we have a crisis of conscience! We have a crisis of care, or lack thereof. But we are just so busy, aren’t we? We go to work and keep our house in order and that just consumes our energy. Who has the energy to care? If you want to pray for something, pray for the energy to care!!!!

The Dumbing Down of America

If you are interested in this subject please read this article and view the video I mention.

https://www.psychologytoday.com/…/anti-intellectualism-and-…

THERE CAN BE NO DOUBT that this dumbing down is taking place. It is anti-intellectual which also means “anti-art.” I came into the world of opera when this was happening. Nobody seemed to know who was giving the orders or how high up they were. Agents claimed to have no control. They also said they didn’t know who was running things. Articles appeared in the New York Times talking about the death of real opera. THEY didn’t know who was giving the orders! General Directors and Artistic Administrators and stage directors all claimed to be in the dark as concerning who was controlling opera and changing it to a dumbed down version of itself. If anyone wants to look deeper into this you should view this video about the Cecil Rhodes secret society. https://youtu.be/FoMezGPkyzU It just may tell you what you want to know. The Rhodes secret society was first set up to support the British rule of the world and later changed to support globalization with the West in control. The society was organized into rings of power. In the U.S. the foremost ring was The Council on Foreign Relations which at first was a front for J.P. Morgan and later became dominated by the Rockefeller interests, strictly globalist. One of the needs of globalism is to destroy strong national interests so that unions, like the EU, can be formed. Dumbing down the American people was and is a strong interest for the globalists. There were times set for various phasing in of certain policies. The time set to dumb down the arts was in the early 1970’s. In my field of art, all of a sudden, directors, managers, et al, were no longer interested in great dramatic voices wielded by great personas, as had been the case since the beginning of opera in 1594. The New York Times even wrote enormous articles about this loss of greatness in opera. No one seemed to understand who was giving the orders for this change. The Rhodesians were giving the orders behind the scenes, and that means the Rockefellers. David Rockefeller was a long time Board member of the Metropolitan Opera and had been Chairman of the Board for a period.

I came into opera by winning the Metropolitan Opera Auditions of the Air. My voice was highly praised by the critics, comparing me to a young Lawrence Tibbett. But I soon found that there were blocks being set in my way. I had to fight hard for every role I got. The critics and audiences praised me, but the business of opera was not opening its door for me. Finally in 1981 I had a break through. I sang the lead role in a New York premiere of an opera with the small company called The Chamber Opera Theatre of New York. Critics from all over the country came and I had an almost unheard of level of success. I thought sure the “big boys” would let me into their closed club after that! They didn’t and they made sure The Chamber Opera Theatre of New York was put out of business! What was going on?

Shortly after that New York premiere success my agent called me and told me I was to go to a certain office building. He gave me the name of a man who requested a meeting with me. I have forgotten his name. Back then I was totally ignorant of what was going on. I walked into his large office. He greeted me like he had known me a long time. He spoke like someone with power, like he was at the top of something, though that was not revealed to me. He talked in a jovial way like, “We’ve been watching you now for quite a while. When you first came to New York you were pretty stiff and some people just wrote you off.” He laughed and asked if I wanted a drink. I declined. He made himself a whiskey on the rocks and continued. “Now that you’ve shown us all how good you are, this would probably be a good time for you to go to Germany. Sing your Tonios and Rigolettos. You are not going to be let in here.” I think my jaw dropped at that. It didn’t sink in what he had just said, and the power with which he said it. There was a little more polite conversation and I left. I didn’t even tell my agent what he had said. I had just been told by someone at the very top that they did not care how good I was. They were not going to let me into their closed shop. They no longer wanted big-voiced dramatic artists who could move audiences. They wanted “a certain type of mechanically facile young performer (a quick study and top reader, obediently flexible in rehearsal) whose singing is neat and unthreatening and who can be described with the oft-heard phrase,’attractive, moves well, excellent diction.’ But we cannot care about or believe in a note they sing or a word they say, for much the same reasons that in life we often do not believe or trust persons whose preoccupation is with being attractive, moving well, and possessing excellent diction.” (The New York Times, April 20, 1980)

The Rhodesians were in the process of dumbing down the arts, weakening a culture, for the on-going process of globalization. Around that time a very big agent told me, “We like your work and we respect your talent, but we don’t have the time and resources to beat down the doors for you. It’s a small, closed group. The same people get hired for everything.”

I was a Midwestern boy who believed if you worked hard you would be rewarded for it. To think that I was being excluded because I was TOO good just did not compute. By now this process in my art of opera is complete. The singers you hear today on the Met stage are mediocre at best. Everybody mourns the loss of great singers and nobody understands how it all happened!!!!! It was planned to happen as a way of weakening the American culture. During Bush’s reign they thought they were ready to make a union of Mexico, the USA and Canada and unite them with once currency, the Amero. Lou Dobbs, then on CNN, reported on it early. People rose up against it and it was squashed, but Lou became a non-person for reporting it. Watch the video and read the article below. Open your eyes and ears!

Love is all there is to talk about

Love is all there is to talk about. It is the only thought that we can share with God. It is the only thought that goes beyond thought and connects us to Reality, which is all-encompassing Love with no opposite. In our dualistic world of infinitely important persons (sic!) “love” is usually attachment. It means that I see something in you that I really want or need and you see something in me that you really want or need, so we attach to one another and feed off each other! Real Love is not personal just as God is not personal, the real God, that is, not the Biblical Jehovah who is a man-child of a person, choosing a few special people and cursing all the rest, throwing temper tantrums like destroying the world, then repenting of it saying, “Oops. I shouldn’t have done that. Here’s a rainbow for you to show I won’t do that again.” Even the “love” mentioned in the New Testament (as in 1 Corin. 13) is still dualistic because the Bible cannot see beyond dualism. There is always an “I–Thou” relationship, never a joining. In true love, the lovers are One. They are One Love in two illusory bodies and they light the way for the true reunion that must happen; the bringing together of each piece, each broken shard of the One Son of God who is seen splintered here in this illusory universe, having forgotten he is Spirit, believing he is a body, subject to time and feeling lack. He tries to connect to other bodies who also have forgotten they are Spirit and experience lack. This is attachment, the broken son of God’s substitution for the all encompassing Love he truly is. Attachment doesn’t satisfy and if people marry with it they get tired of marriage and divorce.

So how do we find this real “Love?” First we would need to acknowledge, as does ACIM, that this Love is our natural inheritance and our true Self, that we are a part of God’s radiant loving light, from which we can never be separated. We have erected barriers to the awareness of Love’s Presence. The biggest barrier we erected is the WORLD!! ACIM says that the dreaming Son dreamed up this world as a place God could enter not! The body is his ultimate citadel against God! But this illusory world can be de-constructed. Every time I look on another and see that what is in his best interest is also in mine, a little light has come to us. I begin to find that if I refuse to make opinions about you that more light comes. As that light comes I begin to feel Love when I am in your presence, a Love which comes to both of us. In that moment my barriers are down and Love’s Presence comes into my remembrance. It joins you and I as One Spirit in two illusory bodies. The bodies are silly things. The Love is all important. This Love we share with God and remember for all our brothers. Love is all there is to talk about!