How to stay “Light” in a dark world—the world is very dark right now. The dream of the world has taken a turn back into fear. One can see it in the reflections of the world on TV and movies. Never has there been such fascination with darkness. It would seek to beguile you. But if you have seen your own inner Light you need but use the awareness that your Light gives. Don’t watch that dark TV show. Don’t let it fascinate you. Turn the TV off and go into your own Light again. We are the Lighthouses of the world. It is up to us to bear the Light in a world that knows neither Light nor Love unless we provide it. And provide it we can. Each of us contains the Whole of the Son of God within himSelf. We are each of us the radiance of God and we can awaken each other from the fearful dreams God’s Son has made in his mistaken belief in terror. Terror would indeed be terrible were it true. Then that which is Real could be threatened and there would be no firm Ground of all Being. Thank God that is not true!!! Only in a nightmare could it seem to be true. In Truth, where you and I and all things have our being, Nothing Real can be threatened. Nothing unreal exists. Herein does indeed lie the Peace of God. That Peace I must bring with me into this terrified world. That Peace must shine in me! “This little light of mine, I’m gonna let it shine.”
In the ceaseless chatter of the brain there is the constant urge to project the opposite. There is a thought of love and the brain projects an opposite. There is a thought of happiness. The brain projects an opposite. What would it be like if we learned to stop projecting the opposite? It would mean that the mind has stilled and stilled the brain as well. Only Love’s Presence would be sensed in everything. The student workbook exercises in ACIM are a very good way to help us with this problem. As long as we project the opposite, this world of separation will remain strong, and we will have to work hard to keep our peace. The lessons of the workbook help us to become aware of our thoughts so that when the urge arises to see something negative, the mind brings up a lesson: “The Light has come. I have forgiven the world.” When I am tempted to see myself as some low image, the mind brings back, “I am as God created me.” When I am tempted to believe in “magic” the mind brings to me, “I am under no laws but God’s.” Gradually we are learning right mindedness, and dispelling separation. Gradually you have more periods of Peace than you do of anxiety. We always thought that Enlightenment was something that came all at once, after long periods of study, yoga, meditation. We made such people who did these things to acquire Enlightenment “special.” WE wanted to be them but we didn’t want to have to live an ascetic life!!!! And we thought that once you were enlightened you stayed that way, or maybe would just disappear one day into the heart of God. It never occurred to us that little bits and pieces of enlightenment come to us all the time as we forgive one another, refuse to engage in attack thoughts or hold on to grudges. We were just waiting for that moment when we would be able to walk six inches above the ground, or on water. Then, we would know, or so we thought! But we were still dissatisfied. Enlightenment was our GOAL and so we were unhappy with the life we had. That is one of the clues that tells us our quest–any quest–is an ego trick. The ego wants to have its cake and eat it too! But any enlightenment that maintains a dualism, an I-Thou relationship is not worth a plugged nickel.
In the summer of 2014, with the help of partner, Burnaby Lake, my right mindedness opened me up into a six week period of enlightenment. I shared it this way:
“A stillness has come to me which is unlike anything I have experienced before. The Love of God has come into my mind to take up abode. I am not alone, nor lonely, nor do I ever feel bored. I am actively experiencing the Love of God in my mind. I need no TV. The thought of it is humorous. I need nothing. I eat my meals while looking happily out my window at the beautiful clouds and mountains. I walk to the grocery store, talk to the street beggars with a smile and love in my heart while I pull out the change in my pocket and give it to them. I come back home and look at the clouds and the mountains and am more than content. Songs play in my mind of peace and the love of God. I write on Facebook, email friends, and pet the cat. What more need there be? I am still inside and need no entertainment. I know that I am a part of God and share his holiness and glory. I am at the gates of heaven. This is a stillness which I have not had before. This is not the stillness from nature, as beautiful as that is. This is the Love of God which has taken up abode in my heart and I want for nothing more; not fame, nor riches, not wife, nor position. I have found peace and happiness within the Love of God. And I am not alone here in my mind. You are here too. We are all one Mind and we are almost home. We are the Glory of God.
“The Glory cloud of God will fall on us. Be grateful that it will fall. Nothing in all your life has prepared you for anything like being under the Glory cloud of God. You will not be able to stand. The body cannot stand in the Glory of God. In the Glory cloud there is the weight of holiness and as much as our spirits belong there, the body does not! The body will groan, shout, and travail under the Glory cloud. But your spirit will never want to be any other place than in the Glory of God. We belong in the Glory cloud of God. We are the rays of His Glory. When the Glory cloud falls the spirit remembers its true home. We know then that we are not a body, but a spirit and a part of the Great Spirit of God. The holiness we feel under the Glory cloud is our holiness as well. But the body can only groan or bark like dogs. In the Glory cloud we speak the language of the Spirit. No human language can work in the Glory cloud.
Pray for the Glory of God to fall, as we awaken to Self, One with God. In the Glory cloud will all our lessons be reviewed. In the Glory cloud will we climb up the ladder. In the Glory cloud will we see Jesus. In the Glory cloud we will know our Home. Soon we will be done with the troubles of the world. Soon we will just be what we are. We are the Glory cloud of God.
“The Glory of God is all I need.
The Glory of God is my Home.
The Glory of God is my peace.
The Glory of God removes all illusions,
None can stand in The Glory of God.
The Glory of God is all I want.
The Glory of God is all I seek.
The Glory of God is the will of my spirit.
The Glory of God is the answer to my deepest question:
“Who am I?”
I am the Glory of God,
As rays from the sun,
I am His Glory.
I am The Glory of God.
“I eat my food and pass my water. I pet the cat and watch the clouds, gather in the twilight and welcome the night.
“I teach my students and just stay in this Love which I never, ever, want to leave. It is my Home. It is my Highest Self. I am where I belong, and I am far from alone. You are here with me, and you, and you, and you, and you. “We are all here, Father. The Mind which you created as One has come Home to you. And you know we never really left. We travelled only in dreams while safely in your embrace. Our Love, Our Light will shine forever with You. And the Love you have for your Son is returned back to you as pure as it was when you created Him. Our song, in praise to You, is all that will be heard.”
“I thought that, for me, the most difficult part of staying in right-mindedness, and continuing my experience of the Love of God in my daily life would be to control reactions. Reactions can send you right back to wrong mindedness. But I have found that the Love of God actually gently protects me from reactions. I mean, there is just so much space and timelessness! I stood in a long line at the IGA today, without any temptation to lose patience. I just listened to the people’s thoughts and feelings as I waited. That’s another thing about the real Love of God…It is not evangelistic! I had no urge to try to persuade people! The Love of God honors our sleeping brothers! It is like Tara Singh said, “Some of our brothers are deeply asleep. That’s alright. Let them sleep. They will awaken.” The Love of God knows no pressure.
“Today I awakened from sleep rather early for me. I thought, ‘Jesus why am I up so early.’ I soon found out there was work he wanted me to do. This is life in the Spirit. We listen to an inner Voice that always speaks for truth, and we happily do as the Voice tells us. We have learned over the years, that those who obey the inner Voice will know the Love of God! May you know it today!! Peace.
That was my sharing with you. For six weeks the Christ Mind was almost totally me. It was the culmination of my life. Eventually, though, I faded back into Joe Shore, more loving, of course, and with higher gifting, but Joe Shore nonetheless.”
My first reaction to its lifting was gratefulness that I had it for 6 whole weeks. But then I had to question, “Why did it leave after six weeks?” I began to feel guilty that I was not something enough for it to stay. And I knew that some people would say, “If it only lasted six weeks, it could not have been real.” Such judgments always come from the ego. One can just hear some people thinking, “If it had come to ME I would have kept it!!!” In truth, these periods of Reality do break in on us. Many people will tell you their experiences if they feel free to do so. We learn Right Mindedness little by little. We climb the ladder of consciousness one step at a time WITH our brothers. No one can climb the ladder alone because no one IS alone. We come as One Mind to the top of the ladder. Then the ladder disappears and all that is left is God and His One Son in Oneness. Consciousness has disappeared as a tiny mad idea. There is only the One, all-inclusive Love of God.
Happiness is a sign that Love’s Presence has been felt. Blockages have been removed and Love’s Presence has come into awareness. In this dualistic world people search for happiness in all sorts of unproductive ways: acquisition of stuff, money, fame, other people, and none of these things work to bring happiness. You would have to find something that has no opposite to become happy, wouldn’t you? Everything that has an opposite is temporary and subject to change. Now I could step forward and tell you that real Love is that which has no opposite because it is eternal and carries God’s nature, but will that help you to experience it? Probably not. But let’s say for the moment that we can agree that if you found this Love which is all encompassing and has no opposite you would also be happy. So happiness is no longer the issue. Love is the issue, but not as the world knows it. That is attachment and subject to time and change. So then you would surely ask me how you can find this Love and I would tell you that you must look inside you. That may mean nothing to you. You may think I mean for you to examine the body! I could step forward then and ask you if you have ever seen behind your eyeballs, or bitten your own teeth? You would think I am either mad or obscure and you would walk out the door. But as you leave you will see very beautiful trees with just a whisper of wind in their top branches. You would see my garden where bees frolic among the flowers and earthworms trundle through the soil. You would smell the fragrance of the flowers. The chatter of your mind would stop and you would be still. In that stillness there are no blockages to the awareness of Love’s Presence. You would feel yourself to be a part of some whole. You would soon see that you are not a body, and just as quickly you would sense yourself to be the immensity of my garden. The branches of the trees are a part of you. The flowers, the bees, the worms, are all a part of you. And just so you will really get it, a hummingbird glides in and hovers right in front of you. He hovers and waits until you finally feel this experience as Love’s Presence and your eternal Self. Now the whole experience of the whole has given you the experience of Love which has no opposite. It does not come from doing anything. It is your natural inheritance, while all along you thought you were a body full of mostly water! You will laugh now at the silly idea that you could somehow be limited! You will sense your immensity and within that is true happiness. It will follow you wherever you go. People will ask you what is different about you. They will ask you to be their guru. You just smile and bless them. They will find their own immensity in time. But now you know that happiness was never the issue of your search. You needed to know who you ARE. That’s all that matters, just to know who you ARE. Until you get it, life’s lessons will continue, as long as you need them. They were made for you.
“The Holy Spirit’s function is to take the broken picture of the Son of God and put the pieces into place again. 2 This holy picture, healed entirely, does He hold out to every separate piece that thinks it is a picture in itself. 3 To each He offers his Identity, which the whole picture represents, instead of just a little, broken bit that he insisted was himself. 4 And when he sees this picture he will recognize himself. 5 If you share not your brother’s evil dream, this is the picture that the miracle will place within the little gap, left clean of all the seeds of sickness and of sin. 6 And here the Father will receive His Son, because His Son was gracious to himself.
T-28.IV.9. I thank You, Father, knowing You will come to close each little gap that lies between the broken pieces of Your holy Son. 2 Your Holiness, complete and perfect, lies in every one of them. 3 And they are joined because what is in one is in them all. 4 How holy is the smallest grain of sand, when it is recognized as being part of the completed picture of God’s Son! 5 THE FORMS THE BROKEN PIECES SEEM TO TAKE MEAN NOTHING. 6. FOR THE WHOLE IS IN EACH ONE OF THEM 7. AND EVERY ASPECT OF THE SON OF GOD IS JUST THE SAME AS EVERY OTHER PART.” (ACIM T.-28.IV 8-9)
What would it mean if we really got this? How would we change our relationship to the planet and all its seemingly separate things? If we really saw that every rock and tree, every blade of grass, every animal, every person is a part of the Son of God, would we ourselves not be changed? We would also see ourselves as Holy, as part of God’s Son, and the “WHOLE IS IN EACH” of the parts. Like a hologram which contains the whole within it, every byte of sensory data we call “the world” contains the whole of God’s Son! How holy is your cat and dog? How Holy are your children? How holy is this planet? When we see that, we won’t want to abuse anything!!! And UNTIL we see that, we will go on with the abuse until the planet is destroyed!!!!
So this thing called “enlightenment” is not just some abstract concept for Eastern eggheads!!!!!! It determines whether this planet continues. Let us look at it from both sides of the mind, wrong-mindedness and rightmindedness. In wrong mindedness we began as the One dreaming Son believed the ego’s lie that he had in fact separated from Heaven and was now fearfully on the lamb from an angry God who wanted to destroy him for his “sin” of leaving Heaven. In fear the Son ran out of his Mind, “so to speak” and dreamed up a physical universe in which to hide from God. As He enters it (“Big Bang” indeed) he shatters into all the pieces of the universe, and in this dream, he seems to evolve into more and more complex creatures in which to hide from God.
Lesson 241 in A Workbook for Students tells us: “The world was made as an attack on God. It symbolizes fear. And what is fear except love’s absence? Thus the world was meant to be a place where God could enter not, and where His Son could be apart from Him. Here was perception born, for knowledge could not cause such insane thoughts. But eyes deceive, and ears hear falsely. Now mistakes become quite possible, for certainty has gone.” The senses were made to deceive! So in this kind of perception (wrong mindedness) we began in this universe, forgetting the Truth of Oneness, exchanging that Holiness for the separateness of fragmentation, out of fear!!! So when we see the world as a “thing” for us to exploit, we are acting in fear and the destruction of the planet is inevitable with fear. Fear causes us to be more and more defensive and defensiveness invites attack. “If I defend myself I am attacked.” Defenses will inevitably kill the world….and that would make no difference at all except for the fact that we can attain to “right minded perception.” The Holy Spirit came with the Son into this universe and He whispers to you and me the Truth of Oneness we are afraid to hear. Skilfully He moves us to forgive our brothers, not to hold grievances, not to have attack thoughts, and little by little we can climb back up that ladder of consciousness we came down on. This is the true ascension!! We can go back up the ladder, and then the world changes in perception to a shining reflection of Heaven, so beautiful we would love it as we love God. This is the Salvation of the world and God has given us the job of saving it, not by judgment or evangelical proselytizing but by the offering of our minds to God, ceasing our attack on him by individualization and sporting uniqueness. Who could do that when you have an experience that everything is your brother and a part of you? The animals are not less than you. I once heard a very spiritual man say a very wrong-minded thing. He said that animals lack the capacity to know beyond their senses! I was so amazed! I thought, my God this man has never had a relationship with an animal! Animals transcend the senses all the time! Create a holy space by quietness and see how quickly the cat becomes a Buddha! Take a dog to a suffering child and see how quickly the dog begins to cure the child. Do your best meditation, climb as high as you can on the ladder of consciousness and you will discover the mind of your cat has followed you there!! The idea that only man can become enlightened is a very clever trick of the ego, designed to make some broken parts of the Son of God more important than others. Then you open the door to “specialness” which the ego loves and which is based on fear, not Love.
We must get this! We must do our lessons. In eternity it does not matter. This little crazy idea was corrected in an instant in eternity, but it is playing itself out in the eons of time. In time, it makes a difference whether we extend love or fear. It makes a difference if there is a beautiful planet called earth where we can learn our lessons by taking on these dreamy bodies and living out our little dramas so we can undo fear and experience love’s presence.
Overcoming our illusions….and Easter
As a child, as an artist, as a teacher, I have carried the same illusions around with me…those of loneliness and lack. I know they are illusions but they are mine to work with until I can undo them. When you are at the top of your profession it is easy to feel lonely. I was and I did. I was invited to join MENSA, and maybe I should have, but I thought it was just adding more to the illusion of specialness, which in itself comes from the ego illusion which fosters loneliness. As a result of these illusions I have often accepted “friendship” from people who were really NOT friends. Instead they viewed me as special and wanted to get something from me. When you have achieved some fame, people always want to “touch you,” as though it will rub off on them, and then they want you to treat THEM as though they were special! ACIM tells us that the “special relationship” is at the heart of the ego’s function which is to instill fear and lack. Ego’s cannibalize others in their quest to get something from others. Many of you FB friends are, I believe, really friends. Many of you can see my soul in my writing and postings and know me better than some people in my city who cannot see my soul and view me through only their projections. So, to you, I say: “Thank you. You have helped me in my journey.” I am working hard to forgive all of those false friends. Just so we are clear, a friend is someone who has joined with you in mind (spirit). They see you as a gift from God. They look on you from the bright side, even if you have done something they think is wrong. They have your back when you have forgotten who you are. If others say something negative about you, they will not join in. They enjoy being in your company, not because they want something from you, but just because they are your friend. They forgive on the fly. They do not hold grievances. They do not save up stamps to be used for another day! They give you that same love you remember receiving from your grandparents! 🙂 Friends help to end the illusion of separation, lack and loneliness. They would never plot against you or enter into some sort of cabal to do harm to you. They do not attack. If you have had harsh words, they forgive quickly or ask to talk to you about it. They know no conspiracies. In the end, it is Jesus’ lesson from the crucifixion that helps us forgive false friends. He advises us that when we are tempted to see ourselves as victimized that we use his model in the crucifixion. He did not see attack. Instead he associated himself with his spirit which cannot be attacked, cannot be betrayed, cannot suffer lack or deprivation. In his association with his spirit he changed crucifixion to resurrection, not by the resuscitation of a dead body, but by placing the altar to God where it belonged, not with the body but with spirit. From that place he could say “Father forgive them for they know not what they do.” Jesus’ body became what it always was, NOTHING, nothing at all, for it never existed in truth. In his victory over illusion, he allowed the body to simply not exist. Having fulfilled his mission he exists within the Sonship as an active symbol of the love of God. We are his students. ♥
I am thankful that these thoughts I share with you, were shared with me by a great Teacher, Tara Singh, and though I have added my own expression and my learning to it, I wanted to give thanks to him. Namaste!
Suffer the little children…We are coming into a season where we idolize a babe in a manger, his parents poor, his circumstances low. There was not even a room left at the Motel 6 for him, so he and his parents stayed outside in little more than a cardboard box would be today. We are asked to look at this child as the unique Son of God and we expect each year to receive from this some answer to our personal and social questions about life. But what if EVERY child were thought to be the unique Son of God. The word “unique” keeps us at arms length from that child. It separates us from him and we never get those answers we long for. Let us see that child as every child. A Course in Miracles offers us a different vision of every child. Every child comes here for one of two reasons, depending on OUR mind. If our minds are wrong, every child comes here hiding from God out of guilt, assuming a physical body to escape the pursuing God s/he fears. If our minds are right, every child comes here as a fresh Light, the Light of Heaven, and would come here to share the facts of Heaven with us. The facts of Heaven are innocence and peace, guiltlessness and love. Every child brings the Father’s touch to the fearful world that hides from Truth. The child is Holy and brings Holiness to the fearful world. The child comes first to the parents who called to him and it is to them that he would first try to communicate the facts of Heaven. He wishes to instruct his parents in the Truth of things, to teach them God’s ways, Heaven’s ways. But the question is whether the parents are prepared and willing to learn from the child; or do they think of the child as “theirs,” as something they have a right to condition with the ways of the earth? Invariably that is what happens, isn’t it? The child comes fresh with the dew of Heaven and would teach his parents the holiness they have forgotten. They were children too and their parents beat the remembrance of heaven out of them, teaching them fear and suspicion, a terrible sense of lack and separation, a loneliness that nothing can dispel. They have forgotten the facts of Heaven, which are their facts too! So will they see the holiness of the child and be still? Will they learn from the child the things they have forgotten? Or will they see the child as needing their guidance in the fearful things of the world? The child comes from Heaven and you would make a citizen out of her and have her saluting flags! Is that not the abuse of holiness. Can we learn from our past mistakes now and see the Heavenliness of things, all things, but certainly children? There is a Knowledge of who we are down deep in us that we cannot completely forget, try as we may. It comes out of us in stories and myths and makes us unwilling to call the world home. Thank God!
When my daughter was about three years old, I spoke with her calmly and frankly and asked her if she remembered Heaven before she came to be my daughter in this body. Children will happily tell you if you ask in love. She said, “Well there I was in Heaven, minding my own business, when an angel came up to me and said, ‘Look down there. Joe and his wife are going to have a baby. Would you like to be it?’ I said, ‘Sure,’ and then I jumped and the next thing I knew I was a baby and they were holding me and saying ‘Look how cute the baby is.” She told this story in a manner of fact way that was very disarming. When her brother was about the same age, I saw him approach my daughter and say, “Tell me again about Heaven. I am beginning to forget!” And forget we almost do, so indoctrinated are we in the ways of the world. The world is the place WE made. Heaven is the universe that God created. It is the Home we long to remember fully. The key to awakening into that remembrance is the awareness of the awesome holiness of all things, and yes, certainly all children. Who will cherish the child as the messenger from Heaven? Who will dare to look at the terrible ego need involved when we see the child as “mine.” “This is something I made.” The fact of it is that children do not come “from” parents but rather “through” them. They are not ours to claim, nor are they ours to indoctrinate in the strange ways of the world. They come through the parents, accepting the vibration of them, agreeing to share that vibration with their own, and then they begin their own path of remembrance. If the parents were ready they could learn from the child. If they had made space for the child and counted it as holy from the first moment of their awareness of conception, then a great event could take place. Learning the ways of Heaven from the child would be as cool water to a scorched earth, torn from God’s Oneness by the mad thought of separation. The Light of the child would dispel the darkness of the world’s illusions with its little mad ways. Then we wouldn’t need to keep looking at Jesus in the manger every year, trying to remember all that we have forgotten. Every child is Jesus and every parent potentially Mary and Joseph. If we could see the holiness of children, it would come out of the remembrance of our holiness. Then, who could fail to cherish the child? Could there ever be child abuse? Could there ever be child abandonment? Could there ever be children in poverty? Obviously not!! We would remember ourselves as Children of God, all brothers, all parts of the One Spirit that God created like unto Himself. Every child would give us the chance to remember ourselves as God created us!!! What a gift!!! But WE think WE have to bring gifts to the child! Invariably, what do we bring but the things of this world? Gold, Frankincense and Myrrh, the things valued by THIS world! We begin immediately to encapsulate the child into the world! Is this not a tragedy? Is this not the ultimate abuse? In three or four years the child will have forgotten Heaven and see only fear, loneliness and lack!! But if we had made a space for the holy child that was coming to us, could we not then protect them from the madness of the world? If for, say, the first five years we could keep the child in the fullness of Love’s Presence, not exposing her to the ideas of the world, the child might grow up without learning fear and reaction. But how often does this take place? We are so worn out, we just want to get a baby sitter and have a few drinks! We were not prepared for the child because we just thought she was “OURS.” And soon, she will be three years old and a citizen saluting flags and entering child beauty contests!! Is there any wonder then that we so idolize Jesus in the manger!!! Let just that ONE child be holy. All of the other children will be OURS and we will teach them to be just like us!!! Can we not now see the tragedy of the world we have made in our mad attack on God? Thank God it is a tragedy that will end for it is only a long dream. In Truth, nothing but God and His Creation exists! We will awaken from fear eventually in time. In Truth no separation from God ever occurred or could occur. In Truth no world exists! Only in Time does it appear otherwise and time is temporary just as the school bell eventually rings and children return home. The child awakens from the bad dream and sees that it was not real.
At this Christmas time, allow yourself to awaken to the awareness of Love’s Presence. Forgive and set aside all of the little blocks you have made to keep such Truth out of your vision! Love the little children; the child of the world and the child in you. We are all just used and abused kids! We too came here as emissaries of Heaven, bringing the Light of eternal Truth to a dark place in the mind that believes itself to be separated from God and on the run from him. We too tried to teach our parents the holiness of all things, and they just claimed us as “theirs,” and made us do as they said. We have been here so many times trying to light up this dark place!! We have need of our own holiness. Let the “holy” child bring this memory back to us to stay a while, long enough to awaken the world from its long dream!
Most everyone who goes to see John of God in Abadiania, Goias, Brasil, is going there under some set up arranged by his Higher Self designed to take him up a notch in his development. There are extraordinary, creative forces in Abadiania that are capable of taking us up towards awakening through healing, vision quest, or other paranormal ways. Usually these forces work through a set of miraculous happenings that are perceived as “holy” or sacred. (My first two trips could be viewed that way.) But apparently, sometimes these forces work in a confrontational manner which is perceived, at least at first, to be hostile. That would characterize my third visit last year. I have taken my time to write about this last experience because I could only view it dualistically at first and this I did not consider helpful for others. I have had to look at the experience much more deeply to come to a non-dualistic perspective. Maintaining a perspective of duality forever as a final explanation means that both good and evil are eternal, that something real can indeed be threatened, that the ground of all Being is indeed shaky, and that eternal Love can change to eternal hate. I will not have anything to do with promulgating such a perspective. However, if you have been following my Facebook postings, I have been dropping little hints about my non-dual conclusions: (1) The irrefutable conclusions of Quantum Physics that no external objective world exists, that we, as centers of consciousness, create our reality; (2) That the psycho-spiritual mechanics of our creation is projection. Whatever fear or unforgiveness that seems to be in my mind, will be projected outwards and I will see an external world that is hostile and attacking me; (3) That our Higher Self, Spirit Guides and Angels, work to give us learning dramas to show us what is holding back our journey up the ladder of awareness and awakening. Most often these learning events are beyond the awareness of our little “selves,” our egos. When we find our self trapped in a dualistic view of what is happening, we have lost our connection to Truth. We have forgotten to take responsibility for our experience. We have forgotten that we can discover something important about our own needs within these experiences; (4) That our High Self often works with ETs (EBEs) in these learning experiences, and in doing so the ETs simply view themselves as helping us in our dramas, and in so doing, giving us a boost up in our development; (5) And finally that the ETs ask us to take responsibility for what we are creating when we experience them as objectively hostile.
Dr. Steven Greer, today’s leader in ETs and UFOs, has shown that when Vedic meditations are used to cleanse the mind, experiences of EBEs (Extraterrestrial biological entities) are always friendly, elevated and spiritually advanced. He has some amazing pictures of EBEs greeting his team. The view that some EBEs are objectively evil is a dualistic illusion!
I was not thinking about a return to John of God in late 2014. I was busy following specific instructions from my guides in creating huge, shamanic necklaces, stone for stone, item by item. They had a tremendous helping effect when I did clearings. They helped me to connect very quickly with higher dimensions and to hear my guides very clearly. The only thing in my mind concerning John of God was a feeling that I should have gotten more out of the two experiences I had at Abadiania. I felt like something was holding me back from going up the spiral and I wanted to know what that was. Then I thought of going back to Abadiania again in 2014, taking along my newly created crystal necklaces and having John bless them while I was there. I decided to go back to Abadiania and stay the month of December.
I arrived in Abadiania Monday, Dec the 8th, and immediately noticed that the vibration felt lower than last year. I thought perhaps that it was I who had changed and a little of the magic had worn off for me. I didn´t think too much more about it. I was definitely still jet lagged when I went to the Casa Wed. but it seemed like a good day, lots of people coming to seek healing. Dr. Augusto came out on the stage and did a few operations. But let me backtrack to Monday and Tuesday. I brought with me three very high vibrational Shamanic necklaces which hook me straight in to my guides. I need this extra speed interdimensional internet when I am doing clearings in the work of a medium. I brought them down because I thought it would be nice to have Joao bless them!!!
They are very strong, high vibrational mechanisms. The huge, main one, to which the other two are linked and programmed, is so big and so impressive that I don´t wear it. At best I would be showing off; at worst I would be frightening people who might think I was crazy. I kept it here in the closet. But I wore the other two around town and on the Casa campus, Mon. and Tuesday before our first meeting Wed. Usually people comment on how beautiful they are, but here I was getting some very strange remarks from people, like, `Very interesting necklace…very pagan looking.’ That type remark kept coming at me. I also began to get some mediumistic perception that the Casa spirits did not like my necklace. I wore one of the necklaces to Casa meetings, Wed. and Thurs. and again got a definite sense that the Casa spirits did not like them. As I went before Joao incorporated Wed. wearing my necklace, he almost scowled at me, and he prescribed no herbs for me. Thursday, I went back to the Casa for the afternoon meeting and did not go before Joao, but my sense continued that the Casa spirits did not like my necklace or me.
Thursday during Casa service I noticed that I could not connect with my guides nor dowse. This immediately caught my attention. I was, at that point, in duality. Something seemed to be happening TO me and I seemed to be separate from it as a victim. It seemed that a dampening field had been set up to block my connection into spirit. It seemed that my high vibration was sensed as an intrusion, or a threat that could attack them. I went to bed Thurs. night and had some difficulty in getting to sleep. When I awakened Friday morning I knew that I had been attacked psychically. I awakened to find that I was not all there. My Etheric body had been taken but I knew how to pray to get it back. Someone had taken me a part and hung me out to dry. This was attempted murder, not some little attempt to scare me. They had also taken my energy. I got that back. They had installed a snooper bug so that they could hear everything I said to my guides. I dismantled that. I put on a necklace and gradually reconnected to my guides. I asked the Creator of All that is, my spirit guides and angels and all my healing team to contact the Casa spirits and convince them that I was not a threat to them, and to cease their attacks. I hoped that they got through to them. But I realized that I needed to be checked out by my senior colleague medium. It is hard to clear oneself and so much had been done to me. I tried to call my colleague in the States and the phone would not dial the numbers. I sensed that the Casa spirits were still blocking me and did not want me to contact my colleague. So I got one of the office girls to dial the number. That time it went through easily. I went over all of this with my colleague and she dowsed and got the same answers. There were a few acts of sabotage that I had not caught and so she finished putting me back together.
The next day I tried to call my colleague in the States but the call would not go through. The phone I used the previous night was completely dead. I got another phone and it called her but I could not hear anything. They really didn’t want me talking to her. I was deep into a dualistic experience. I could not see myself as responsible for the experience I was creating. I did not have the perspective that this was a lesson given to me for my own inquiry about what was holding me back. My perception was that I was under attack by Reptilian and Grey ETs who wanted to get the codes in my necklace which were also in my Etheric body. I knew I had to get out of Abadiania and left as soon as I could. But it ended up taking me several days to change my flight back to Vancouver. During those days I experienced intense psychic attacks. I did not experience them as lessons for my benefit. I did not physically see any Reptilian ETS. It was a clairsentient experience. But I suspect they were in a ship overhead because that is what they said earlier. About twenty years ago, an ET had incorporated into John and said, “Wherever John is there is a mothership overhead and scout ships are sent out.” Two years ago, a friend of mine got photos of two scout ships coming into the area behind the Casa.
I arrived back in Vancouver traumatized with a perception that I still had a psychic link to the Reptilians. At one point I seriously considered going to my doctor and telling her that I had experienced a psychotic break in Brazil. But I did not. A deeper part of me guided my mind to look at the experience in a different way. If “projection makes perception,” what was there in me that I had projected to give myself such a negative experience? I looked at the terrifying experiences I had under the psychic attacks. They appeared to have something symbolic to communicate. They all referred to people and events which were keys in my life and which required many years for me to be able to forgive. But that was the point. I HAD forgiven them. They were not the reason for my projection or for my lesson regarding what was holding me back in my progress. Then I saw that all the psychic attacks (so called) were symbolic presentations to my mind of some key forgiveness I had withheld. I had never forgiven MYSELF for something I regarded as a key failure in my life and I had covered it up from myself. That repressed truth was that which was holding back my progress. Then I remembered what ACIM teaches us. “If we are using perception to justify our own mistakes–our anger, our impulses to attack, our lack of love in whatever form it may take–we will see a world of evil, destruction, malice, envy and despair. All this we must learn to forgive, not because we are being ‘good’ and ‘charitable,’ but because what we are seeing is not true. We have distorted the world by our twisted defenses, and are therefore seeing what is not there.” (ACIM, Preface)
The way in which I could forgive others, seeing them as role players in my drama, I could also use to forgive myself. I had a role to play in my life and I was (am) not the role any more than others were their roles. I could forgive “Joe” for what I held against him as unforgivable. Then I saw the beauty of what had taken place for my benefit. My Higher Self had created a role playing experience for me using the creative forces in Abadiania. It built the necklaces in such a way that they sent out a signal to whatever creative forces there are in Abadiania. If they were really ETs, the ETS gladly helped by taking their place in the drama I was creating. They used their psychic abilities to give me the experiences I needed to unlock the secrets I had hidden from myself. My Higher Self was making sure I got the answer to my serious question, what is holding me back? It had nothing to do with John of God. It was all about helping me!! I was given the virtual experiences I needed. If there were actual ETs involved, I thank them! I also thank all my other partners in learning during this experience!!!! But wait just a minute. I went down there to discover what was keeping me back from going up the ladder of consciousness back to God. It was not simply lack of forgiveness for something I held against myself. The terrible world of attack that I projected was the result of my coming into contact with the repressed belief that I have–that you and all of us have–that I have in Truth broken off from God, stolen the crown jewels of Heaven, so to speak, and am now on the lamb from an angry god who wants to annihilate me! So I hide in a body where I think He cannot find me. I hide in an ego world I projected, all the time keeping out of my mind the original terror of the belief I have separated from God. That TERROR in Abadiania was the manifestation of my holding of the original terror of separation, from which I normally hide. My Higher Self was giving me a full answer to my question regarding what is holding me back? THIS BELIEF that I have indeed separated from God, now denied and repressed deep within the mind, was brought to the surface where I made it manifest in the world I created there in Abadiania!! None of it was REAL.
You can see now how important it was for me to take my time in discerning these lessons. If I had stopped with a dualistic interpretation I would have learned nothing and projected more illusion. ANY INTERPRETATION WHICH TELLS US TO FIGHT SOME EXTERNAL EVIL IS DUALISTIC ILLUSION!!! If you have been abducted by ETs and all you learned was that you need to fight against the “evil” ETs, then you have learned nothing. Don’t be surprised if they take you again! They view themselves as assisting you in your drama and ask you why you are not taking responsibility for what you are creating? It is something within YOU that makes you perceive the ETs as evil. That is the point. Whatever is holding you back from climbing Jacob’s Ladder is within YOU!
Just so, I have nothing to say about John of God. Plenty is being said, for and against him. He is a lightning rod for perception. However, I have reached some conclusions about my last experience in Abadiania which may be helpful to others: Underlying all these conclusions is the one big fact that we hold in our minds the original tiny mad idea that we have separated from God and are now separate and on the lamb from Him. All perception stems from this mistake in thought. All perception is illusion!!!!!!
(1) Humans must begin to understand that their consciousness is “creating” the human/alien event they conceive of as dualistic. If they are not aware of this, their “creation” is quite likely to be negative and cast the ETs in “bad”/”evil” roles within their creation. The aliens simply see themselves as helping us by being a part of our drama that we are creating and giving us a jump up in evolution.
(2) ETs view their part in our creativity thusly: to read our minds, determine the goals we have set for ourselves in our mental creations, and our over-all spiritual evolution, and assist us with them by providing virtual characters and situations which are helpful with these over-all goals.
(3) ETs seen thusly, are energetic nodes of possible evolutionary jumps that transcend the dualistic description of good or evil.
(4) Where humans have not transcended dualistic frames of reference–good/evil, heavenly/demonic, helpful/hurtful, et al, –the human experience with ETs becomes locked into the mind with traditional repression/denial techniques, often requiring professional assistance to retrieve repressed data and discover a deeper, non-dualistic lesson.
(5) Human/ET encounters offer an enormous potential for Human growth.
(6) Dr. Steven Greer has shown that when the minds of human participants are substantially free of dualism through meditation, that the experiences then that follow with ETs is not only “good,” but reality enhancing for both humans and ETs. First non dualistic contact has been made and it is very good!!!!
(7) If you have had what appears to you to be a negative abduction experience with ETs, look what is in your own mind. Why did you create that? What can you learn from the virtual events the ETs gave you? What major (Higher Self) issues are you working on that could have given you the need to create the experience as you did? Can you now see the “terror” (if you experienced that from the ETs) to be something symbolically representing what you have not forgiven within yourself and which you are projecting outward? Your ability to see past dualistic categories is essential to come to peace and inner development. A Course in Miracles is constructed in such a way that it does not bring to our mind the terror of the original mistake in thought too soon. It would engender too much fear!!! I can vouch for that!! Rather, by the usage of the Workbook for Students, it takes us by the hand and slowly introduces us to what we have done, and then shows us how to undo the thought, still the mind, and listen to the voice of the inner Teacher. This is a far better way! Namaste!