Many of you have already entered the 5th dimension and beyond and you now have a “burden” for the world. You want to help the world to transition from 3D duality to Love’s Presence but you don’t know how. You, like me, have been searching for a method. The method is simple will. If your mind is operating at a higher dimension, simply will that a person be raised in dimensionality. If you are operating at a higher dimension, your will is powerful enough to raise up others. As we all do this, we will raise the planet. It “will” be done, because we share God’s will in so doing.
Walking through a wooded field, the thought of you comes into my mind as Love’s gift. Soon the thought becomes your presence and I realize that you are with me in a higher dimension. I enjoy nature’s presence and you are there. I feel peace and you are there. I admire the beautiful ducklings and you are there. The clouds hover low over the lake this twilight, like clouds over Valhalla, and you are there with me. I feel your presence, just in a higher dimension, and I am there with you. We are together in a Love which has no opposite and no need. No lower thought intrudes. You smile and hold me as we walk by the lake. No eyes can see us but ours, yet we are together now and we will never part. You look on lovingly as I write these lines, knowing they are of you. I am inundated with Love’s Presence and you share it. I have prayed for you, longed for you, and now you are here. Soon we will leave all lower dimensions together. But for now, I am fulfilled in your presence, assured that you know my love for you, as I know yours. I love you so. I love you so. Love has made itself present within our midst and lifted us both to higher places.
Letter to my ego from a Higher Me: “Joe….Joe, listen.” Think of being on the stage of the Metropolitan Opera. Yup, that’s you. There are some things I need to say to you. You know I think you are an illusion and you think I want to get rid of you. I know that sounds pretty frightening to you. But let me tell you something, Joe. “I’m sorry. Please forgive me. I love you.” You were perfectly made for me to learn the lessons I needed in this lifetime. Yes, you could be harsh and authoritarian, but you could also be informative, inspirational, and daring. You were the image of the Aries for all his strengths and faults. I guess you probably miss all the intellectual debates you used to have, and the authority you held as a theologian and then a university professor. Those positions perfectly fit you. But they could not last because you had more lessons to learn. I forgive you your faults and I thank you for your daring, inspirational, actions. You are going away but fear not. You are going away with my love and thanks! Thank you Joe. You were the best, brightest, most talented of your generation. Accept this truth and this love, and don’t worry about tomorrow. IT will all be OK.
Love grows. It is in its nature to extend itself. The Love of God that has come to me seems, as it were, a great gift. But in Truth it is a part of Me, and shall I not know my True Self? I will know myself as God created me and I will go back into the Father. Along the way, the love just keeps growing and the eyes of my brothers and sisters just keep opening. Spirit has commanded me to go back to Abadiania Brazil next month to be with John of God. I suspect that everyone there has been commanded to come. There we will pray for the world, for the transdimensional Love of God to be brought upon the 3D world and all its denizens as a mighty world-wide flood! The world needs a little boost right now to help its transformation. We must touch the world with the Love of God. The vortex energy of God’s Love that centers in Abadiania, WE must direct to every nook and cranny of the 3D world, and every ego who thinks s/he lives on this terrestrial ball. This is indeed the time of change all our myths have spoken about, and we who know the Light must now step up to the plate and do our job. We will do it! We will heal God’s son!! How can we do less? The Father weeps for his separated sons lost in dreams. How can we do less than bring his sons and daughters Home to Him, and with him, we too enter Heaven’s Gate and remember our ancient Home. Only Love is real and I Love You.
It is one of the tenets of Quantum Physics that there are as many universes or time lines as there are possibilities. Whatever choice that could be made has been made. We are simply attracted to one particular time line by our consciousness and our karmic needs. So here is another view of the world, and it is True.
In eternity where all was One, there crept into the mind of the Son a tiny mad idea that He could somehow be different from His Father. At that instant the Son recognized He had fallen into a little dreamlet and He laughed. The laughter reached out through Heaven and extended the Love of God. On through eternity the flow of God moved unhinderedly and unconsciously through a Spiritual universe that the Father had created from His Love. The Flow of that Love extends into infinity. The LOVE is the way, and in it is the Truth and the Life.
We do not know how much Love there is in our present condition. We do not know how many “dimensions” there are or how spirit views what we call dimensions. We have been in a dream where nothing is clear but we are coming out of it now. We are beginning to awaken from our long nightmare of separateness and duality, the phantom world of bodies, of sin, guilt and fear. Let us simply keep open by admitting the fact that we do not know much yet about Love, nor do we remember very well our heavenly ways. At best, as St. Paul said, we see “as through a glass darkly.” But we will remember. We will awaken fully to Love’s Presence and it will put an end to silly stories. The fully awakened, One Son will know that it is impossible for Him to be anything unlike His Father♥♥ The One Love Son is the radiance of God, and that we are NOW even as split sons who think we are a body. I am NOT a body. I am the son of God and I will know my Father’s Love for me.♥♥♥
Let us leave the world of unforgiveness behind and live in our Love and our Song. The Song is not formal music. It is the eternal call to Home that the spirit hears in every rock and leaf, every grain of sand, every child’s face, every dog and cat’s response to our love for them. The Song is in you. I hear you singing it so sweetly. Oh precious Jesus how the world sings the song you know so well, the song of Oneness in praise of the Love that we are.
The world that was created by fear and anger we can now view through the eyes of newness. No longer must we see the world as separate factions fighting one another. We have forgiven the world of strife we created. Forgiveness now rests on our brows and on the world’s. Now can we see Heaven’s reflection made so perfect in the world. Now that
There is peace in me today and there is strength.
The beauty I sought I see.
Around me there is healing
for I see no fragments.
The Whole needs no healing or forgiveness.
And I bless now when I search not for them.
I rest now in the peace God has promised for me.
His voice will supply me with directions.
I need not plan.
He will provide for me day by day.
In time I have touched the hem of eternity.
What could this world offer me?
Through the Vision of Christ now I see it,
Fresh as Eden,
Its reflection of Heaven grows stronger.
And soon I will step through Heaven’s portal.
Home is the one who searched for Love.
Home is the one who felt loneliness and lack.
Gladly I offer my little dream of individuality to the truth.
I am as God created me, One with Him, His One Son.
And you are there with me.
Just as I enter the music of Oneness I see you
and memories of our love come to my heart.
I told you I would always love you.♥
In quiet eternity does the one song sing, unconscious of itself
As a song, singing only love.
Peace or Fear? That is the question. In every circumstance in every moment, we will act or respond out of peace or fear. If I am at Peace, I will hear the voice of the inner teacher and say or do what he tells me. If I am not at peace, the only voice I hear is the ego and the ego always perpetuates fear by projecting the opposite and then you are trapped in the same old cycle of reaction. The ego always reacts untruthfully by projecting the opposite, fear, which does not exist in truth because nothing real can be threatened and nothing unreal exists. This is the great value of A Course in Miracles: It can bring you to peace and let you practice a life lived in peace rather than reaction. We need all the help we can get! We are “fear junkies,” addicted to reaction. Just look at CNN!! They LOVE tragedies! They will play and replay fearful scenes days and days after the event because they know that the “fear junkies” will keep watching! Listen to their leading questions when they interview a survivor. “Tell us how you felt when the building was coming down, when the tornado came, when the water came in your house?” They are all questions to continue fear. FEAR created this universe, the fear of God. We made this universe (and maybe others) as a place God could enter not!! Fear runs the world. But you have a choice for peace or for fear. So what do you do to teach yourself peace and non re-activity? The easiest way would be to do the daily lesson in the workbook for students that A Course in Miracles provides. You just do the lesson. Don’t try to understand it. You won’t be able to at first. You just do the lessons and little by little the Course will help you to undo the mistakes in thought you have made. Those little mistakes in thought have made a fearful world. But the Course will show you, “I could see peace instead of this.” Today is a good day to start. If you want to be a loving person you will have to undo all those attack thoughts you have. You will have to learn to let go of grievances. You will have to give up “an eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth.” What good would that do anyway? It would make the whole world blind and toothless. Where is peace in that?
Peace, sweet peace
I remember you.
I have longed for you.
In the hectic day, in the chaos of thought
I have longed for you
In the moment of Now you come
Fresh as a Holy Instant.
You are here.
You lay over my world like a blanket.
I am safe.
The stillness of you silences thought.
My thoughts cannot intrude upon you,
And then there is no judgment, no opinion.
If I have no opinion I love…everything.
This gentle stillness of now is poised for me to enter
and as I enter I know I am not a body.
Gratefulness replaces thought in the Now of stillness and peace.
This peace I will take with me, Father, because You gave it to me
That others might have it.
Peace, stillness, Now.
Your son is grateful Father.
I know that I must seem like a salesman for A Course in Miracles to some of you since that is about all I write about…other than my cat Blanche.:) But I am not really a salesman. I don’t care if any of you ever study the Course. We will all go home anyway. You will eventually wake up and join the party even if you burn the Course. My words are for those who are READY to have their lives transformed. The advantage of ACIM is that it takes you by the hand and gives you one lesson a day which begins to undo the errors in thought which erected barriers to the awareness of Love’s Presence. The awareness of Love’s Presence IS enlightenment for Love and Light are One. One of my ACIM teachers, Tara Singh, had been an ascetic living in a cave in the Himalayas for three years, then he mastered yoga, then he became a humanitarian and helped Ghandi and Neru build the Indian nation. He became a friend of President and Mrs. Roosevelt and worked on so many humanitarian projects. J. Krishnamurti never accepted pupils or disciples, but he accepted Tara Singh and for many years Taraji learned from Krishnamurti. After that he moved to California and began a period of five years of silence. Can you imagine living in total silence, never uttering a word or a grunt, or any sound? At the end of these five years of silence, as he emerged, he came in contact with A Course In Miracles and its scribe Dr. Helen Schucman and Tara Singh came to enlightenment!!! He devoted the rest of his life to teaching a few serious students who had the ears to hear. He never commercialized the name of God. Taraji gave DISCIPLINE and discrimination to spiritual quests using ACIM. There are so many thought systems. It is so easy just to pick a concept here and there and make your own salad. It is not a true way. Taraji came to understand that A Course In Miracles gives us the Thoughts of God and is a gift of God to His Son. It is a way that is offered to all the separated sons, but it will be chosen only by those who feel drawn to it. Namaste♥♥♥
Did you know that even your brain–as unreal as the body is–is designed to give you the experience of being connected to others? All throughout the brain there are special neurons called “mirror neurons.” What they enable us to do is amazing. When I see someone smiling or frowning or crying, my mirror neurons enable me to feel exactly what the other person is feeling. In other words, they connect me. We all know that we can do this and often have the experience, but our socialization has told us that this is improper or even bad to do. Sometimes it violates our first principle of egohood, (rule no. 1 “All egos are separate.”) When you walk by a homeless man begging for food, you really CAN know what he is feeling, but you shut it out because you may not WANT to know his feelings. You try to shut down your own mirror neurons. In other words, WE LIKE BEING SEPARATE! You can’t escape that! The evidence is too great. We have the ability to feel totally connected to all things and we choose an illusion of separateness! Here’s the thing: The ego is terrified of our feeling connection because when we connect there is only Love! The ego is terrified of love. It doesn’t know what love is, but it knows that love cannot coexist with it and therefore is its enemy. WE ARE ALL PSYCHIC! We can ALL connect.
There is a homeless man that begs near my supermarket. I always give him something, but a couple of days ago, the Holy Spirit said to me, “Go talk to him. Rub his shoulders. Give him loving touch.” So that is exactly what I did. He was very surprised but in a good way. I speak to him now most every day. Here is the problem with us: WE ARE UNWILLING TO REMEMBER GOD’S LOVE. We would rather hide out in a body and pretend to be separate. And we will keep coming back into these bodies until we change our minds!!! Just so you know, that’s where things stand!
Why is it so hard to forgive!!!! First of all I would like to put forward the definition of forgiveness in ACIM. Forgiveness is to overlook something, let in flow on by as though it never happened because in reality (i.e.God’s world) it never happened. Jesus anticipated all our objections. We say, “Wait a minute. What if someone is killed or raped! How can you say that didn’t happen? And how can you forgive that?” That’s the question the ego loves and it thinks there is no answer to those questions except to accept victimization!! Once we accept victimization we have fallen deep into the ego’s system of thought and we will never be able to forgive. Knowing this, Jesus allowed himself to be crucified. He called it, “the last needless journey the sonship ever needs to make.” In allowing himself to be so cruelly tortured in the eyes of the world he showed us the truth. Instead of identifying with what the body was going through, he identified with his spirit which cannot be hurt, cannot be tortured, cannot be harmed in any way. That shift of identification changes crucifixion to resurrection, not the resuscitation of a dead body, but a living spirit identified as the Son of His Father. He asks us to follow his example so that when we are mistreated in this life, far less than he was in most cases, we identify with our spirit and refuse to accept the position of a victim. On the cross he said for our benefit, “Father forgive them for they know not what they do.” Notice what he didn’t say, such as, “How could all of you do this to me?” Or, “You will all burn in hell for what you did to me,” or “Karma’s a bitch. Wait til you get yours.” Those are things the EGO says and wants you to say.
Our lessons are in relationships and how often do we find people playing the victim in relationships? “He hurt me once. I’ll never let him hurt me again.” Are you SURE he hurt you? Have you forgotten that projections makes perception? When you say, “He hurt me,” you are describing the poverty of your inner state. You could have interpreted the event differently. As the Course says, “I could see peace instead of this.” If Jesus could see peace in his crucifixion, you can see peace in a relationship. But what about rape or abuse? Everybody has their favorite crime which they think proves victimization. It doesn’t.
I knew a Christian woman once who was raped but she took a totally different and Christ-like view of what took place. She had nothing but compassion for the man who did the deed. She even described the event this way. “He broke into my house and he did what he thought he had to do and then he left.” She forgave the man because she refused to be a victim. She also showed the richness, the Christ-likeness within her by choosing to perceive the event the way she did. Tara Singh, our beloved teacher of ACIM, said often to us, “Regardless of what my brother does to me I will not hate him for it.” Tara Singh was a Christed man. He knew to “resist not evil.” Don’t react.
Another aspect of forgiveness as seen in ACIM is that when we “let it go, let it flow on by as though it never happened,” we don’t break relationships!! The ego wants you to say, “OK I forgive you but that is the end of our relationship. I don’t want to ever see you again.” The ego loves this because it reinforces its primary desire of SEPARATION!! When you say, “i forgive you, but I need my space from you now. Our time is over,” you are not forgiving at all. You are in the Ego, justifying separation and calling it your “space.” “Oh, I just need my space now.” Space is separation. No counseling was ever successful when the couple stayed AWAY from counseling!!! But that is the state of mind of the “victim.” “You HURT me and I am running away from you.” Really? Is that our model from Jesus? Hardly!! You have to see this if you ever want to forgive and if you don’t forgive you will go deeper and deeper into illusions and the “unwillingness” to remember God’s love. I didn’t say that. Jesus did!! Reactions happen within relationships because we are often in fear rather than peace. But if you learn to forgive by seeing that in TRUTH (i.e. in God’s world) nothing has happened, you can forgive on the fly, overlook things quickly, and the relationship goes on as a classroom for learning. Every time we break a relationship because we scream that someone HURT us, we send ourselves back into kindergarten. We will have to do the whole thing over until we choose for right-mindedness!!!
Someone said to me, “I have a pattern of choosing the wrong man for me.” The first thing you want to say is, “Oh, how terrible for you dear. Well you know a good man is really hard to find.” That would be the ego response. Keep the conflict going. The only real response is, “You are drawing the ‘wrong man’ to you by perceiving you are a victim. If you want to get out of this time warp, choose a man and perceive him as God created him.” Then it won’t matter if he is young or old, muscular, or any of the other external traits we use to judge a piece of meat!! But the question is, Can you break through your unwillingness to change by remembering God’s love for you as your own identity? Or will you just wallow in your life being a victim, always looking for the right man and always perceiving you got a bad one again!! How many lifetimes do we have to go through this class? Always projecting problems, reacting out of fear and claiming to be the victim? How many times have YOU been here going through the same drills and making the same ego choices? Often Lightworkers are just as egotistical as anyone. THEY have a claim to higher knowledge to justify their perception of victimhood!! Hmmmm….seems few people want to follow Jesus’ example and leadership! Our lessons can be learned joyfully but if they are not learned joyfully they will be learned by pain! Something happened in your relationship? Forgive it. Let it go as though it never happened. This is the only real way denial can help you. We deny that we can be hurt, tortured or crucified. And now comes the humor!! There has to be humor. All of this “stuff” that you are so mad about is just a silly dream. The dreamer has awakened in Reality. We are as we always were. Nothing has happened to God’s Son. But in the unfolding of the illusion of time, the dream appears to be played out and take “time.” We can speed up “time” if we laugh at the tiny mad idea that God’s Son could be “hurt,” or victimized in any way. Laugh as loud as you can. This is the greatest joke of all “time.”
I am un-doing and I am being undone. The seeming “individual” that I think is my persona, is being undone. My “persona” (my “soul” which renincarnates) is not real. It is just a collection of karma, a pattern of doing, sensing, feeling, acting which keeps going into more and more bodies. The bodies are unreal too!! We ARE all a spirit but we are the SAME spirit. There is just One of us here! ACIM brings great clarity to this ancient mystery that divided Hinduism from Buddhism. We ARE the divine Self split into zillions and zillions of bits and pieces. Some of the bits manifest as sand, water, birds, and some manifest as humans, some as Pleiadeans some as Arcturians, some as Grays…On and On it goes. As I begin to undo the belief that I am an ego housed in a bag of skin, born into this world and destined to die, I begin to make space. G.K.Chesterton said, “The angels fly because they take themselves lightly.” There is truth in that. When you make space you see and feel parts of the divine Self you didn’t know before. You’ll give thanks to the Arctuarians for all they have taught you. You will feel and perhaps even see, many spirits with your spirit, all right-minded, all climbing the spiral with you. There is just more and more space. You don’t need the heavy, dreamy body. It was a very silly idea we had to dream up this physical universe.
How Real Is The Near Death Experience?
Since I have made it plain on this site that my path is ACIM, this question is pertinent. If the body is an illusion and the universe is an illusion, is the NDE an illusion? The Course uses ultimate terms for “reality.” To the Course, Heaven is the only reality. All else is illusion. In this sense, the NDE is an illusion too, though a very different one than our daily world in the body. Since we are minds (spirits) rather than bodies, the Course has no difficulty in accepting that the mind (spirit) can be “apart” from the body since the body is never real anyway. At the event that we call physical death, the mind (spirit) of the person is still just as it was when it believed itself to have a body. It still has its lessons to learn and still retains its illusions. Nothing has happened except the inherently illusory body has been dropped. Many NDE-ers have gone all the way into death of the body, as measured by this world. They come back with quite a story and some personal changes. Those who worship the Ego and believe there is no life after the death of the body always try to find a way to disparage NDEs. That includes skeptical scientists who think there is no consciousness after the death of the body. The NDE is a big threat to them. But how “real” is it? That depends on how you view reality. From the point of view of those who think life in the body is real, NDEs are at least that real! But the Course would not call our life here on earth “real.” It is an illusion, a dream. So for the Course, NDEs are an extension of the illusion but in a different dream state. The worlds of Light the NDE-ers experience are very interesting but they are just as illusory as the so-called physical universe we live in now. Minds without bodies seem to create other bodies, astral bodies, celestial bodies, all as illusory as the physical bodies and all preserve some sense of separateness which is illusory. What about the all pervasive love they feel in these states? From the point of view of the Course, the physical body is the greatest barrier we have erected to the awareness of Love’s presence which is our natural inheritance. When the body is gone, it may well be that the mind is flooded with the love it was hiding from in the body. But minds can be wrong-minded or right-minded. Wrong-minded minds will surely continue in their wrong-mindedness after the body is dropped, and they may create wrong-minded dream worlds to appear to inhabit. Purgatory or hell states will be just as real for them as the celestial beings experienced by right-minded minds. What about the life-review that NDE-ers report? The Course would have no difficulty with that. We are told that we are responsible for our learning and that lessons we did not complete have to be retaken. What about meeting Jesus in these dream states? The Course would tell us that Jesus is now a symbol of the Love of God present within the mind of the sonship.
What we know now about such “symbols” is that they PARTICIPATE in the reality they symbolize. They are not “nuda signas,” mere illusions. They have great power in the mind. Jesus as a symbol for the Love of God is active within the mind of the sonship regardless of the illusions of the sonship. When NDE-ers claim to encounter this Being of Love that they identify with Jesus they are doing just that in the mind. They are not meeting the historical Jesus but the Jesus who is an active symbol of the Love of God.
What about the other beings NDE-ers claim to experience, like dead relatives, friends or high beings? The Course has no trouble with the idea that disembodied minds meet other disembodies minds, and the illusion of separateness continues, so you can meet Aunt Sofie or Cousin Johnny. They are there in this new dream state that the mind has created since dropping their physical bodies. But even so-called “high beings” are as inherently illusory as us as separate beings. As long as there is the appearance of individuality and separateness, we are still in the dream.
What about the report from NDE-ers that there are levels in the worlds they experience, some higher to God than others? The Course makes it very plain that there are no hierarchies in illusory states. What we can say is that those minds who have almost finished learning their lessons create a different dream world than those who are just beginning their lessons. This would account for all the so-called levels in spirit (mind).
What about the so-called transformative effects of the NDE? It is true that when they return to the body they often “remember” more of who they are as a mind rather than just a body and they often return with the memory of Love’s Presence which broke in on them when the physical body was dropped. I have yet, however, to meet an NDE-er who was moved by his experience to come back into the body as an enlightened person. They still have lessons to learn and they still come back as egos. They are now happy egos and they do have a sense of Love’s Presence which helps them to be more loving in their daily lives. They also appear to have after effects that are interesting and which appear to be side effects of realizing that they are spirits (minds) rather than bodies. Like minded spirits (minds) can join and often NDE-ers return with a mind connection to disembodied spirits they have met in their NDE. So they may be able to talk to Uncle Fred even after returning to the body. For many NDE-ers, the experience breaks the illusion that we are bodies living in this world. They now at least have experienced that they are minds (spirits), not bodies, and that our “life” on the earth is just one phase of existence. That is quite a lot for any one experience to give to you, so we should not disparage the NDE just because it is not ultimate reality. It is a different dream from the earth, but a dream non-the-less. It can move people to learn their lessons faster while on the earth and it can make people more loving. By themselves NDEs do not provide a full theology and it would be illusory for people to try to create a theology out of them, but ACIM gives us a much fuller picture. Even the Course does not try to give us a full systematic theology. It aims at taking down the barriers we have made to the awareness of Love’s Presence so that we may hear the inner Voice (in mind) of our teacher, the Holy Spirit, or Jesus, the active symbol of God’s love. Let us be content with that for now.♥♥♥♥
Do you know the Love of God? Have you ever, even if just for an instant, experienced yourself to BE the Love of God? I hope so. Awakening cannot be far away from those who have experienced themselves as the Love of God. Maybe you even had to die clinically and pass over to the other side before you felt the Love of God. When you came back, what did you feel for all those you know and meet who are still lost in emotional pain? Did you hurt for them that they will not accept the Love of God? Did you see their unwillingness to give up their view of the world as being victims? Did you see how they believe in sin, in themselves and others? Did you see that they do not know real forgiveness? What did you do? Maybe you tried to talk with them and share your experience of the Love of God but they
“Help Me to wake My children from the dream of retribution and a little life beset with fear, that ends so soon it might as well have never been. Let Me instead remind you of eternity, in which your joy grows greater as your love extends along with Mine beyond infinity, where time and distance have no meaning. While you wait in sorrow Heaven’s melody is incomplete, because your song is part of the eternal harmony of love. Without you is creation unfulfilled.
“Return to Me Who never left My Son.
Listen, My child, your Father calls to you.
Do not refuse to hear the Call for Love.
Do not deny to Christ what is His Own.
Heaven is here and Heaven is your home.”
ACIM, A Song of Prayer(VIII)
How can we see the world as “OK,” right now, just as it is? You say, “You’re crazy man. Look at all the evil.” Well so long as you see that you are going to be upset.
ACIM says, T-21.in.1. “Projection makes perception. 2 The world you see is what you gave it, nothing more than that. 3 But though it is no more than that, it is not less. 4 Therefore, to you it is important. 5 It is the witness to your state of mind, the outside picture of an inward condition. 6 As a man thinketh, so does he perceive. 7 Therefore, seek not to change the world, but choose to change your mind about the world. 8 Perception is a result and not a cause. 9 And that is why order of difficulty in miracles is meaningless. 10 Everything looked upon with vision is healed and holy. 11 Nothing perceived without it means
T-21.in.2. Damnation is your judgment on yourself, and this you will project upon the world. 2 See it as damned, and all you see is what you did to hurt the Son of God. 3 If you behold disaster and catastrophe, you tried to crucify him. 4 If you see holiness and hope, you joined the Will of God to set him free. 5 There is no choice that lies between these two decisions. 6 And you will see the witness to the choice you made, and learn from this to recognize which one you chose. 7 The world you see but shows you how much joy you have allowed yourself to see in you, and to accept as yours. 8 And, if this is its meaning, then the power to give it joy must lie within you.”
Seek not to change the world but choose to change your mind about the world! What you see will either come from your peace or your projection!! If you have learned your lessons you will know that the atonement has already happened. We are all One right “NOW” in Heaven. Here in this world of illusion, the fact of the atonement is just being rolled out a bit at a time. But the results are already in!! So you can look on the world with peace and see it as “OK.” It doesn’t need to change! Your perception needs to change from projection to peace! I don’t REALLY care if Romney or Obama gets elected! It doesn’t really matter. We are not really here! I don’t REALLY care if you choose to learn right now through pain rather than through joy! It’s your tiny choice but the sonship is already home.
Tonight love fills the air. Your name was mentioned and that was all that was necessary to bring in Love’s Presence, like a cool, soothing breeze on a hot summer’s day. You name has brought Love’s remembrance to me. The many have become One. No little blot or stain can stand in Love’s Presence. All illusions flow gently down the stream of ages while the rocks whisper; “Only Love is real.”
Working with ACIM I am losing the fear of God and making good progress in losing the idea of sin and fear. But it is a process. The Holy Spirit came into the dream with us. He can guide us in our lessons we must learn, of forgiveness, giving up fear and hate, and passion for personal power. As we learn those lesson we begin to remember more and more of who we are as spirit. This dream is all unfolding in time and the end of the dream cannot be threatened! All of the split pieces of the Son with be gathered together as One and awaken from the dream. There will then be no need for time and this dreamy physical universe with disappear!
I am filled with gratefulness for you: You who care for animals so much you make God smile and weep for joy; for you who love nature so and wish to take care of this beautiful planet; you who have a golden spirit of song and sing all over the world spreading joy and love wherever you go; for you who care for children so much that you are the best first grade teacher ever; You who love people and help them, old and young; you who love God so much you wish to connect with him like a son to his father; you whose mind is so sharp you love to teach math and science to kids; for you who care for your spouses and have learned to love; for you, the blue collar worker, who works at back-breaking toil because he loves his family and he wants to support them. For you, and you, and you, and you, and you over there. For you, Carol, who cared for me; for my animal friends who have joined in mind with me; for you my students who share their lives with me. I am so grateful for you. You are my brothers and we are all One Spirit, the Radiance of God’s Glory. Thank you my brothers for the Light we are and the Love that is all there is to share.♥♥♥♥♥
The time is coming and almost is when we shall be able to call in the Light of God, that unspeakably wondrous Light of God which is Love, the Light we call “the other side,” or “home.” Most people have had to be near death to see that light, and enter it again. The transformative Light changes all who enter it by stirring our remembrance of our true Self. We are the radiance of God. The Light is us and we are it. Now you can see why we are not a body and there is no universe. We ARE this Light and in it we are all One. This Light knows no judgment. It only is the Love that is God, Truth and Knowledge. When you go into the Light you will not want to be a body again. You will weep at the thought of leaving the Light to come back to such a sour illusion as the body. Now the time almost is when we will be able to call that Light into our being now and the veils will be lifted from illusions. Your loved ones who have passed over into the Light are still here with you. We will soon need no channel or medium to contact them. Their presence will touch you when the Light comes and it will come. We will call it in. THIS IS OUR GREAT TIME OF SERVICE to each other and to the Light for God is lonely without his Son. Our minds are being prepared now to be able to call in the Light. If you have felt like a caterpillar about ready to change into something you know not what, this is part of what we have been sensing and feeling. So soon now, the Light will come and take down the barriers to our illusions. The Light will come. We will call it in and it will fall on us like the rain of Heaven, bringing with it all our beautiful memories of the Truth we have forgotten. So easily will all our fears slip away from us into nothingness and we will know that Love is all that is real. While for a while bodies will remain and the phantom we call Earth will slip in and out of the Light, I will look into your eyes and see only the Love of God and the Light will lovingly and gently wash away anything that would come between our joining. Would it not be something of great worth to you just to speak to your grandmother again, or your husband, or that child you lost too early? They are not gone. You will speak with them and you will know them in the Light. WE WILL CALL IN THE LIGHT AND IT WILL FALL FROM HEAVEN LIKE RAIN ON A DRY AND DUSTY PLAIN AND LOVE WILL MAKE ITSELF KNOWN. When the Light comes, first the air will sparkle with living glimmer, then the glimmer will enter you, every little place where you need Love’s Presence. Soon the air will become nothing but Light and the sight of bodies and planets will disappear. In the Light we will be transformed by remembrance. We are not native to this physical, dreamy place. We come from the Light. We are Light Beings native to a spiritual universe of Love which is also Light and Truth and Knowledge. We have been trying to remember our Home all these ages of bodies, coming from the Light, going into bodies, going back to Light. It is enough to make the world spin.
The time for learning is almost over.
In this space I would put away all time and learning.
I would come afresh to stillness. I would call in the Light.
There sparkles all the truth my learning could not attain.
In that Light I find you,
perfect with the innocence of creation.
You have not changed.
As wisdom-bearer in Brahman’s House, who could change you?
As natural as the flow of the Tao, who could change you?
As the silence on the Buddha’s lips, who could change you?
In this Light there is stillness,
And in this stillness I have found you as perfect.
In the Light all minds join into One.
When the Light comes there is relief from time
and freedom to remember the vast ages of our knowing.
Lifetimes upon lifetimes present themselves in parade of gallant splendor for at last we remember.
Millions of years come to us in memory of who we are and the Love that grew within us.
We have not changed.
Our alchemy shows its art.
In this space I have summoned the Light and I remember that I Love you
Keeping the Faith!
Is Faith a gift or a work? Faith is a natural property given to those who ask but you have some work to do in maintaining it! Faith asks you to keep your eyes on Jesus and do the work you were sent to do. Life is full of possible distractions and so maintaining faith is not a cakewalk. Evil and suffering are there along the way to try to steal your gaze. When the wolf is at the door you need faith more than ever but holding on to it is the hardest thing you will ever have to do. These are not idle words. I have been there. There have been many days that all I had to eat was a can of pork and beans but I still managed to give some change to the beggars.
Krishnamurti was asked, “Is it true that life will take care of you?” He responded, “Yes, but you have to give yourself over to it completely.” That would be faith, moment by moment, day by day, month by month, year by year. It is living on a razor’s edge but somehow you know that there is no other way for you to live. The only thing that makes living this way bearable is FAITH.
In the early part of my career as an opera singer I called this “floating” in life. It is more than a little ironic that I should use such a term since I never learned to swim. But others told me that learning to float in water one had to relax and trust the water. Somehow it made sense to me, so when I moved from Tulsa to the Big Apple to start a career in opera, I learned to float. I had to learn. I had no financial support to cushion me. What I had was FAITH that God himself had given me this gift of voice and had told me to sing opera. That certainty was enough to give me the faith to “float” in life. Month after month I found someway to pay the rent and eat, though often not much. Some days I had two eggs for breakfast and lunch and a large slice of pizza for dinner. One summer I sold orange juice on the streets of New York. Sometimes I got work as a bartender. But then I would get an engagement in opera and all of a sudden I had money. FAITH (Floating) was essential. Those who had talent but no faith gave up on their careers and went back home to teach.
Then there came a month when I saw no possible way to pay the rent! But there was a singing competition called the Bruce Yarnell Memorial Award for Baritones which would be held soon and it had a prize of $1,000 and the prestige of being named the best baritone in the U.S. And Canada at the mid-career level. I entered the competition. My competitors were from the New York City Opera, the Metropolitan Opera and other regional centers. I had the faith that I could win and I worked very hard to hold on to that faith. I won and paid the rent!!
Many nights I would take flight in my dreams and actually go on journeys in the spirit. One night I went up into the spirit world and came to a “class” that was being held for spirits preparing to enter life in a body. The class was about how to “float.” The students were seated on what looked like high school bleachers with dumbfounded looks on their faces. I floated right into the class and said, “Look, it’s like this. You just float,” and as a spirit I demonstrated “floating.” I had learned how to do it, not in water but in life. There have been many times I have been tempted by fear to lose faith. Saying the Lord’s Prayer is very helpful….”lead us not into temptation but deliver us from the evil one.” Who is the evil one but the one who would seduce you to lose faith? Pray to be delivered from that one, and woe to those on judgment day who choose to draw others away from faith and to the dark side! That will be a life review you wouldn’t care to attend! Jesus said of such people, “It would be better for them were a millstone tied around their neck and cast into the ocean.”
Does this story sound modern? Modern it is, and ancient too. Both the Jedi and the Sith use power to control. Neither has read The Lord of the Rings nor seen Gotterdammerung!
We get so caught up in cheering for one side (and who will be honest and say he hasn’t thought of cheering for the Sith) that we do not see that this is a false dualism. Think for a moment, if remember ALL of Star Wars you can. What is the only truly powerful force in this mythic saga? It is love. Love is all that is powerful. It is Luke’s love for his father that makes him reach out to Darth Vader. It is Vader’s memory of his love for his son that brings about his redemption. All those who are touched by love get redeemed.
Evil IS temporary. It cannot abide love’s presence. Good is not stronger than evil, but love is. Never a doubt there is that love will win.
With all the selling of light sabers and memorabilia might easily we forget the lesson here to be learned. The lesson is not that we should learn more martial arts, master our psychic powers better, or go on holy wars, but that we should become aware of love’s presence. Only a moment of love’s presence will be changing. If that seems too cosmic for you, then start with love’s presence wherever you can become aware of it, in the love of a dog, the smile of a child, or the presence of a friend. That little “start” is like awakening.
For many years my neighbor across the street lived in a beautiful old country house surrounded by four huge, tall, evergreen tress that were at least 200 years old. They were so tall they seemed to reach the clouds. Every storm we had, I wa
We are now in an era that sees the need for localization. People everywhere are starting community gardens, converting vacant lots to vegetable gardens where a whole community works. Community is love extended in action.
Then one day my neighbor passed over. Her daughter inherited this paradise. However, instead of maintaining it she sold the house and property to a real estate agent. Our community watched in horror as a bulldozer came and tore down the house and the garden, but the worst was yet to come. Tree haters came with the intention of destroying those four 200 year trees!! First they cut off all the limbs of the trees, then they climbed the trees with their spikes and used a chain saw to cut the tops off the trees. Then they would slide down and chop off more until there was nothing left but a stump. Then the machines came and pulled the stump and all its roots out of the ground. As I watched all of this I was horrified. I felt the pain of the trees. (They are part of the sonship too and every part of the sonship, even a grain of sand, is sentient!) I wept for them. I have never experienced such pain communicated to my mind from the trees. Their first feeling was utter surprise and betrayal. They had been there, loyally standing guard for two hundred years. And then, the physical pain as they were tortured to death. All of this was done so the real estate agency could make a big ugly house for rich people to buy. You wonder, what kind of a person would be drawn to buy a house that was built over such destruction. Once again, we humans, failed a test to understand “worth” verses money. That old house, with its community garden and 200 year old trees was “worth” an enormous amount to this block. People who do not know worth will have no trouble destroying, not only trees, but animals, to build an ugly house. We had many sections of land here in Burnaby that were wild and inhabited by coyotes, Bears, and foxes and raccoons. The “industrialists” cleared all the wild property without any regard for the trees or animals living there. Now we have a problem of coyotes eating neighborhood cats, and bears frightening children! Such insanity!
ACIM tells us that everything, down to the smallest grain of sand, is a part of the Son of God. We are to forgive our brothers, but how do we forgive nature, or rather how does nature forgive US! We forgive nature by protecting it. The Course knows the same compassion as Buddhism, but the Course goes further and tells us that everything is sentient!!! Now scientists are seeing that. Fruit trees grow better fruit if music is played for them, and the branches grow in the direction of the speakers. Flowers grow prettier if you talk nicely to them and pat them gently. We have many, many brothers on this planet and we are not doing a good in compassion. That’s why a community garden is so important. It brings us and our flower and tree brothers together in love.
One of the few (perhaps two) physical mediums left in the world was in Seattle, David LeBaron, who worked at a small Spiritualist church there named Tower Memorial Church. My colleague and I have been observing David’s work now for some time and I will share some of our observations.
Pursuant to my interest in spirit possession and the possible usage of mediums for treatment, I note that David LeBaron has been trying to help in one case I know of, through the usage of spirits which come through him. In this particular case, he, and the spirits, have been unable to effect a stable cure. This is of interest to me.
I hope this little account will be of some interest to you.
If you have had a relationship which ended badly, perhaps because of reactions, and you have forgiven her but she hasn’t forgiven you, let that be OK. Her unforgiveness of you does not hurt you. You are as God created you. She has chosen to sleep. Let that be OK. If it is not OK you haven’t really forgiven her.:)
There is nothing outside of you. You hold the memory of the world in your mind and project it outward every day. The world you see is but a reflection of your mind. This would present you with hopelessness were it not for the power of forgiveness in which you replace your sorry memory of the world with the Vision Christ brings. Seen through the eyes of forgiveness, the world you remembered and projected becomes filled with light. The only condition for Vision is complete forgiveness of everyone and everything. No hidden blot of special darkness is allowed. No special hatreds can be left in secret. Is this such a price to pay for Vision? As forgiveness happens, you begin to see a little light around the edges of your dreary world. When forgiveness is complete, the shining real world presents itself to you as a reflection of Heaven, so near that the distance to God is but a tiny step. Gone is your memory of the world you projected. Miss it not, for its memory is a happy loss. Now are you free to remember Heaven, your ancient Home, and surprised you will be to see yourself greet you at Heaven’s gate, for you have never left in truth. All of your journeys through time have been but dreams. In gratefulness do you surrender your little rebellious dream of individuality and enter into the Oneness that you have always been. Every loving thought you have had is perfectly remembered. Is this not enough? Now does Christ look on His Father afresh and sing the ancient hymn in praise of Heaven. Now do the lights of Heaven burn with their ancient brightness and within it you are a part.
My brothers, do not fail to hear me in this hour. For now is the time to forget the world and remember Heaven. Remember and awaken!
“The night air cools and your voice becomes still. In these moments you can hear my voice. I am always with you but you cannot always attend to me. Blessings abound but your mind is a junkyard. In perfect heaven you do sit while dreaming of earth and exile. My voice has but one purpose; to awaken you. Forget the nightmares you project and remember heaven. You have not in truth left it, nor are you in any danger. Safe within creation’s Love do you sit. Nothing serious has been done to you. Awakening is not possible as long as you believe in sin, guilt and fear. But see past them you can and the world you created from them will drop before your eyes as the shining presence of God replaces it.
Be still and know that I am God. The night shimmers with my love for you. In the dark, night clouds fly over you, unnoticed, just as my love covers you always but goes often unnoticed. Be still and know that I am God. The song you sing comes from my heart which is yours also. Do not let the body quiet your song. Let the song remake the body.”
“It is easy to get lost in dreams. They furnish the evidence that you seek in proclaiming your separateness. You live but in dreams while the love that you are goes unnoticed or only vaguely remembered. Do not wonder how easily you forget heaven. Wonder instead why you choose dreams in place of reality. Is it not because you fear reality? If Love is all-encompassing, have you not projected the opposite? Fear must be illusion, and you become lost in it. This is the answer to your question why do you so easily forget me. Be still and know that I am God. You wish to remember me and yet there are blockages to your recollection. Know them well you should, for you have made them and given them a place in your heart where I wish to dwell. If I take my place in your heart there is nothing but the song you cannot forget. The Song that seems to be forgotten is not. Its melody stays there, firm, beautiful, structured as it was. What could you do to change it? And so it haunts you, coming back in little wisps of memory, phrase by phrase, asking for its whole. And you would remember. Remember, and let a little of the Song come back to you and through you.”
Two singers walked through a yellow wood,
Singing as they went.
Blessed by the songs were the creatures of nature.
The singers were bound together by a love which encompassed both themselves and their song.
The woods made a beautiful path for the singers
And the love in their song went ahead of them.
Being both expressions of the same Love the singers knew one another as the lips know a smile.
As the sun went down, a full moon lit the way, and the singers were bathed in moon light.
They sang into the night, joined by a symphony of nature.
Soon Coyotes and owls, wolves and crickets joined in the song.
The singers knew not that they loved each other.
They knew only the love of the song which they shared.
It happened the next morning: a fork in the path offered two directions through the forest.
The singers knew not what to do.
They had no destination.
They had only their song and a little whim to walk in the woods.
They thought about this until finally one said.
“I’ll take this path and you take the other one.
“We will meet when the paths come together.”
Somehow it did not feel right to split up the song but they did.
One went one direction and the other went the other.
At first they tried to call out to one another but soon the Forest heard only one voice.
The paths which at first looked smooth and easy soon grew very hard.
The forest which first looked so beautiful soon became gnarled with thickets and thorns.
The song which had been so strong seemed almost lost.
Both singers found encampments of people who had settled down in the Forest.
“Come stay with us,” they urged.
The Forest is all we need.”
But each singer remembered the other, and the Love they shared.
Little wisps of melody of the Song came back to them and they remembered.
Deep in the Forest they began to sing, much to the protests of the Forest dwellers.
“Why are you making that noise? Stop it or you will have to leave.”
And they left.
Both singers, miles apart, left their encampments and took up the journey again.
They began to sing parts of the song they remembered.
Soon the animals of the woods took up the song and it echoed throughout the Forest.
As the song echoed the singers began to recognize each other’s voices.
They followed them and there in a clearing they met face to face.
They were so happy they embraced one another for the first time.
They had never been separated before and thought of themselves as One.
In the clearing, the full moon shone brightly, bathing the two in moon light.
They sang their song together in that moonlit clearing.
They sang like they had never sung before.
As they sang moon beams illumined a trail that seemed familiar.
They followed the trail, half knowing where it went, to a beautiful lake.
On the shore of the lake they saw a beautiful cabin.
Suddenly they remembered that this was their old home they had left long ago.
They opened the door and went inside where they saw their home, perfectly preserved.
The table was beautifully set.
The napkins were laid out.
The stove was warm and fresh baked bread lay on it.
They remembered this beautiful home by the lake.
How could they ever have forgotten about it?
They remembered the Love they shared and the song that sprang from it.
They remembered themselves as One, sharing the same Love that filled them.
There they rested in an ancient peace and Love that satisfied and the two were One Love.
No more desire to leave entered their hearts.
They had found rest in the Love that they were.
And the Song rested in their bones.
The truth that is Peace fills my bones. Too long has it hidden there entrancing me to search for it. Now it wishes to speak and to be known as it is known. A welcomed guest it is, Prodigal to me. A happy home I will make for it and I will listen. For this one is bone of my bone and Self of myself
What is the consciousness of the Tao? What is the consciousness of the One? The water flows. The pebbles whisper to it.
The tiny drop that is “me” flows into the Pleroma. Fullness, fullness, fullness, joy and peace. I am still.
Peace reigns as a slight mist comes off the water to meet the clouds. All is quiet except for the flow of the river over the rocks. My awareness sinks into my soul and I become at One with all things.
Making A Holy Space
Into a place come the people. The place is made of the peace of God. It has been created by the holy intention of two or more to experience the peace of God. This peace first comes from adoration of the Christ, overwhelming thanks, tears of love, and tongues of gratefulness for the gift of Christ throughout all existence. Moving closer, the Christ and we become One and there is only the peace of God. The chairs, the carpet, the doors, all remember and hold this Peace. This place is used for nothing but this. The purpose of this outward place now enters each person who enters it. In this holy meeting place the many will become One in the Christ Mind. No little thought of darkness will be able to penetrate this holy place. No shadow can come into the Son of God’s holy Mind. Here all questions are answered, all fears abandoned, all prayers answered, for the son of God has heard the melos of the ages and responds in simplicity to the call of salvation. Here the son rests in holiness. This Peace is the answer to all the little questions the separated son could imagine in his little dreamy life. And today and for eternity we will extend it, beyond the planet, beyond the universe, into and through the universe of Spirit the Father has made. Now does the Son know His Father. Now are the two One. No space is left to separate the Father from the Son, nor is there any place where the Father ends and the Son begins. In perfect wholeness do they continue eternity’s ancient work of extension. Love has conquered shadows. Nothing real has been threatened. Nothing unreal has ever existed. Now the Peace of God covers everything as Light without beginning or end, nor is it possible to imagine any place where this light is not. It extends from a center which has no boundaries towards an end that has no end.
We will continue to share this peace as long as the illusion of time and separation appears to be so. This will be our work. Let the little separated minds be healed for the Christ has come and asks entrance into each mind to free them from the illusions of fear that bind them still. Lightworkers and angels unite in this the work of ages. Today we will know the Peace of God. Tears will adorn the little bodies we have made to hide from God. Like Jewels on royal brows the Son comes to Himself and to His Father.
Father, take these my brothers who Love so, and envelop them in the same Love you have for me. Today the Sonship returns to your Peace. Holiness is all we will know and your Home is ours.
The Love of God is so much greater than we imagine. We have to make space to receive so much more than what we thought was true. The Love of God came into my heart today with so much more than I allowed in yesterday. Today there is no one to forgive. Today there are no debts or debtors, no trespasses. There is just the love of God and the music that comes through me. Today I forgive the world for the Love of God has come. If tomorrow if I find temptation I will say,” I have forgiven the world for the Love of God has come.” To my hurt brother I will say, “Be at peace. The Love of God has come.” To my angry brother I will say, “Let us start again for the Love of God has come.” To those who hate me I will say, “I am sorry. Cannot we put it away? The Love of God has come.” For the Love of God has come.
It is a good day!
I have pierced the veil of Brahma.
It is a good day.
I have touched the All and felt silence caress my lips.
It is a good day.
I have looked into chaos and pain,
Confusion and discord,
And I have seen you there,
Fresh as the dew on creation,
Innocent and whole.
It is a good day.
Peace has come to greet Love.
Who could deny them their union
Or freeze the genial currents of the soul so aroused?
A Few Days In May,
There was a time when I was filled with wonderment and peace; a time in which all things were possible, all hopes held, all miracles accepted, and Love knew its name in every word we spoke. We glided together through a wonderland of nature filled with peace and majesty and saw our souls reflected in beauty. Each Wood Duck showed your glory; each Mallard but spoke of your grace. Arm in arm we shared the beauty and wonderment of Love’s Presence in a May garden, in a time that so kindly stopped for us. Have we ever left? We are still there in that quiet moment. I know we will never leave it, for those moments were real and eternal. They are ours to revisit anytime we need to know Truth and Love. A field of daffodils, on quiet waters, a still vastness, and so much more that words cannot speak, we shared in a few days in May at Burnaby Lake. And now I am still filled with wonderment and peace. It is still a time when all things are possible, all hopes held, all miracles accepted, and Love knows its name. The changes of the seasons will not affect the Lake or foul the peace that lives there. Changes come, but Peace and Love stay. The ducks and geese will still be waiting for us to feed them. The sky will still welcome the marsh wrens and swallows in their swirling flight. The beavers will still be in their dens and vastness will still caress its feathered creatures and flowers, its leaves and bees, its creatures of the lake who come forth from such immensity. We will always be there and Love will always be Present. I am haunted by such grandeur, and I speak gratefulness for a few days in May.
One of the great things about a marsh is that you get to see the changes it goes through in the seasons. Summer has come to Vancouver and my life at Burnaby Lake has gone through many changes.
I was at Peace today when I went to the waterfowl sanctuary at Burnaby Lake, so I was not surprised to find peace there. I always find peace there. Peace, honeysuckle, and summer ducklings showed themselves today. The garden that was just beginning to grow in May when we were here together is now full in bloom and full of life. The most amazing flowers now bloom. Bees are busy everywhere and the slugs are trundling about. I was very concerned about one slug who was sitting in the garden path. I didn’t want him to get hurt. They are all my slugs and my bees. The most amazing full arbor of honeysuckle filled the garden and beyond with the best smells of summer and childhood. There was such peace and beauty there today. It only needed you there to see it with me. The blackberry vines are in full bloom now and little berries are forming. We are all waiting for the berries; birds, humans, and chipmunks together. Further into the lake, Lilly pads have replaced the fields of daffodils we were so awed by, and the ducks have created highways through them. Scores of Mallards were swimming single file through the narrow highways they had made, ducks as far as the eye could see, in a pilgrimage from one pond to another within the marsh. One mommy Mallard proudly displayed her late summer hatchlings, a brood of five sweet ducklings no more than four inches long. Did I mention there was peace there today? No thought of good or evil crossed the minds of the ducks and geese who nibbled seeds from the hands of children feeding them. The Redwing Blackbirds carried no worries on their wings. The Marsh Wrens knew no cares. The marsh does not know hatred. Sweet peace and gentle waterways flow.
I wondered how I would experience the marsh since my brush with Nirvana. I had not been there during the beatific vision I experienced for weeks. There was no need then. But now that I am somewhat more back to the earth, there is no place I would rather be than Burnaby Lake. Some things have been changed in me though. A fishing rod sits In my car’s trunk, now unused, because I do not wish to frighten the fish. They are my fish. I want them to swim freely. All creatures and things of the garden and lake are God and we along with them. To believe that would make me naive or muddle headed, but to know it is truth. I feel things in a gentler way now and I know what I know. It is much sweeter. Yet it is all bitter sweet for lack of your presence to share this with me.
The sky was blue and speckled with clouds as the swallows and marsh wrens dived through the air. Big fat geese stood in water two inches deep and puffed out their big bellies. On a bench, three old Russian ladies, oblivious to the paradise they were in, muttered in Russian about mundane things. In the marsh, only the humans ignore peace.
I want so much to share my marsh with others, but only some can see. My childhood world of the garden was like that to me as well. Both the marsh and the garden exist in eternity waiting for visitors with new eyes and hearts. I want so to take you by the hand and say, “Come over here. Let me show you the carrots and the peas, the beans and potatoes, the watermelons and corn, the strawberries and gooseberries, the peaches and the apples, the grapes and the walnuts. Look over here. Let me show you the ducks and geese, the peacocks and chickens, the fish that swim freely in the stream, the beavers and the otters, the owls and the eagles. They are just right over here. They are made of god stuff just like you and me. Look at the flowers too beautiful to pick, the honeysuckle bushes and mimosa trees that so delight the little humming birds, and over here, the tiny baby chickens that peep and sit in the middle of your hand. Let me show you. Do you know how strong walnut trees grow? Come, let me show you. Do you know they can withstand a tornado? Feel their trunks. And over here, between two big walnut trees grandpa made a swing just big enough for two people. Sit with me and we will watch for the red birds to come and listen for the whippoorwills. It is all here. Everything anyone ever wanted and so much more is just waiting for us to grow new eyes and hearts. And there in the marsh, something new comes today from peace and assurance that nothing can go wrong. Nothing can go wrong.”
I want so much to show you these things for they are a part of us and we of them. My eyes see better because the birds are so beautiful. My nose works better because the flowers are so fragrant. The fish swim more freely because I love them so. The bees, the worms, the slugs all work the garden better for love. Can you not see? Can you not see? The world is our body and God is our soul. What could be wrong? In this eternity what could be wrong? It is all part of the same beauty. In the time it has taken me to pen these lines twilight has come. The beavers are just coming out of their dens for moonlit strolls. The ducks and geese now perch themselves on logs and wait for dreams of tomorrow. The wrens are in their boxes. The crows have left the marsh to sleep in their trees and a mother eagle sits in her nest just across the lake. And now I have seen them and in these lines my heart has shown them to you. Have you seen them? Have you seen them? I reach out to touch your heart with the love that I know from nature, from God, and from you. I don’t know if you have seen them, but I am happier that my heart has shown them to you. And the parting line will always be, Love is Present.
A cabin sits on the shores of a small lake, surrounded by evergreen tress. There is a fire in the fireplace. A thunderstorm is brewing. Rain comes through the trees refreshing the forest, pelting the lake with its drops. Yet stillness reigns in me as I share such a heaven with a friend I love. This friend is a girl I once knew who dripped of moonlight. Her smile entranced the sun, and the rain ran through her hair to the world’s deepest valleys. She stood above the earth as a luminous presence and blessed it with a Song. In her presence I believed nothing, but knew all things, touched all things afresh, as fresh as a dew drop that poised itself in eternity just so that we might join in its experience together. Of Newness her brow was formed; of peace, her face, of sensuousness her long legs; and wisdom followed her footsteps as she sang her Song. I know her. I will not tell you her name. She has never left my mind for we are One. We watch the rain together as it showers the pond. In the distance, Coyotes sing their songs and Owls make comment. In this flow are all things perfect and meaning is unfettered by form. Love has remembered itself and taken up residence in our midst. The rain dies down. The pond becomes peaceful again. Not a ripple is left. We watch the glowing embers die in the fireplace. Peace, Peace, Peace and Love is Present. Love has found one home in two hearts and the two hearts have become one.
The Cabin still sits there on the shores of that small lake waiting for our return and Love is still Present.
Everyone reading this is in some “situation,” and the “situation” is keeping you from the Truth. You bring the situation with you to work. You take it home. You live with it. You don’t like it but you can’t get out of it. It enfolds you in layers. You can’t see out of it or beyond it. You almost panic and think of giving up. But if you can wait with faith in your higher Self, you will be given a solution. Someone will be brought to you who is not caught in your situation, and s/he will bring to you the path of your own heart. Maybe you are a religious person. You are caught in the situation of religiosity. It is sticky and clingy and pulls you down but you can’t see a way out of it. But you have just a little faith in something higher than your religious self. One day someone comes into your life and you can sense that your higher Self has brought him/her to you. S/he is NOT religious. That’s not his/her situation. Maybe s/he is into nature and because you know you love him/her you go with her into nature. Your higher Self knows that your heart wants to flow with the Tao so it brings this beautiful person into your life. Now your situation pulls at you and says, “don’t let me go.” But you really want to be with this wonderful person. Your heart has been buried in this situation. Can you hear it enough to follow it with her? Your heart has never really been into religiosity. That was just your situation. Now you have a chance to make a leap with your heart and look above, see beyond. Will you do it? Or will you cling to the situation? Krishnamurti said, “There are no problems in life.” Can you dig that? Where would you have to be to see that? You’d have to be clear of your situation, wouldn’t you?
Just a word about living by Faith. It’s not religious. Krishnamurti said, “There are no problems in life.” Can you imagine the faith in existence to say that? As ACIM says, “A healed mind does not plan. It carries out the plans that it receives through listening to wisdom that is not its own. It waits until it has been taught what should be done, and then proceeds to do it. It does not depend upon itself for anything except its adequacy to fulfill the plans assigned to it. It is secure in certainty that obstacles can not impede its progress to accomplishment of any goal that serves the greater plan established for the good of everyone.”
So what “catastrophe” destroys your faith so that you would be unloving to a brother? A flat tire? A fearful thought? A careless word? Some detour into fear! In that detour do you see yourself as small and vulnerable and in need of protection. You would easily betray a brother out of that fear because you have seen yourself as weak and in danger. Wake from the nightmare dreamlet. You are in no danger. If you cannot see that then the winds will beat and the floods will come in manifestation of your fearful little idea of yourself.
What Happens When We Die?
by Joseph Shore
Isn’t this the question we all want answered? As much as we may believe something, we want to know.
I have had three open heart surgeries and during the first one, I had an out of body experience that seemed very natural. I was later able to identify the events which took place while my body was unconscious. Some of my friends have gone all the way. My dear friend, Dr. George Rodonaia, was dead for three days in a hospital morgue and later revived during the autopsy. PMH Atwater died three times This is what she has to say about it:
“Any pain to be suffered comes first. Instinctively you fight to live. That is automatic.
It is inconceivable to the conscious mind that any other reality could
possibly exist beside the earth-world of matter bounded by time and
space. We are used to it. We have been trained since birth to live and
thrive in it. We know ourselves to be ourselves by the external stimuli
we receive. Life tells us who we are and we accept its telling. That,
too, is automatic, and to be expected.
“Your body goes limp. Your heart stops. No more air flows in or out.
You lose sight, feeling, and movement – although the ability to hear
goes last. Identity ceases. The “you” that you once were becomes only a
“There is no pain at the moment of death. Only peaceful silence. . . calm. . . quiet.
“But you still exist. “It is easy not to breathe. In fact, it is easier, more comfortable, and
infinitely more natural not to breathe than to breathe. The biggest
surprise for most people in dying is to realize that dying does not end
life. Whether darkness or light comes next, or some kind of event, be it
positive, negative, or somewhere in-between, expected or unexpected, the
biggest surprise of all is to realize you are still you. You can still
think, you can still remember, you can still see, hear, move, reason,
wonder, feel, question, and tell jokes – if you wish.
“You are still alive, very much alive. Actually, you’re more alive after
death than at any time since you were last born. Only the way of all
this is different; different because you no longer wear a dense body to
filter and amplify the various sensations you had once regarded as the
only valid indicators of what constitutes life. You had always been
taught one has to wear a body to live.
“If you expect to die when you die you will be disappointed.
The only thing dying does is help you release, slough off, and discard
the “jacket” you once wore (more commonly referred to as a body).
“When you die you lose your body.
That’s all there is to it. “Nothing else is lost.
You are not your body. It is just something you wear for a while,
because living in the earthplane is infinitely more meaningful and more
involved if you are encased in its trappings and subject to its rules.
(This material was excerpted from two of P.M.H.Atwater’s books – “Beyond the Light: The Mysteries and Revelations of Near-Death Experiences” (Avon Books, New York City, 1994), and “We Live Forever: The Real Truth about Death” (A.R.E. Press, Virginia Beach, VA, 2004). It is based on first-person commentaries from over 3,000 adult experiencers of near-death states. ~PMH)
Whether you find yourself in a tunnel or simply but suddenly experience yourself out of the body and in a dimension of Light/Love, you will be greeted by those you love who have already passed over. This is a reunion you have been longing for. Next you may encounter a Being of Light, an angel, or a Being you identify as Jesus. In His/Their loving presence you will be given strength to see the details of your life. As on a movie laid out holographically, you will see the times in your life when you hurt people. But you will feel it from their perspective. It will be very painful. But then you will get to see all the loving things you have done and experience them from the perspective of the people you helped. These things herald through the universe and you will feel the happiness of the angels and other beings around you. Next you will be taken into conference by a group of beings, whether we call them angels or the Lords of Karma, you will see all of your past lives and review all of the lessons you have learned and those you failed to learn. You may get to stay in spirit with your loved ones for a “time”–as long as you need.. You may stay in spirit and learn your lessons there. You may get a fuller picture of all your lives and the eventual merging back into God. You will begin to experience yourself as a universal being who has had all these lifetimes, instead of just the person you were before you died. But at some point you will have to choose whether to stay in spirit or go back into another life that will be designed for you as a classroom for you to continue your learning. No one is forced to go into a body. All who choose to come back are viewed as heroes by their brothers in spirit.
Some people complain that the NDE is all too dualistic to be true. My first answer to that is the fact that this is the way people are experiencing the process. The second answer is that we experience the world dualistically. Your birth was experienced dualistically. There was a time when you came into the womb of your mother and felt connected to her, but unique. Then you were shot like a canon ball out of her and experienced yourself separate from her and all other things. You lived your life that way. Why should the death process be experienced any other way?
Many people who have had full NDEs find it very difficult to put the experience into words, but many of them also feel a compulsion to try to explain what has happened to them. The truth is so utterly fantastic. We are not native to this dimension of material. We are photonic Beings who come from a dimension of Light and Love and we are learning lessons here in this classroom of the world that will help us go back Home. Our Father and our elder brother, and all those we have loved are waiting for us there. Never a doubt there is but that we will get Home.
My children were leaving. I had lost custody of them in a bloody three year court battle, and now they were going. They did not want to go. Thomas was 9 years old and Katie was 15. They were at my house one last time before their mother pulled up in her old car laden with baggage and told them they were leaving for Florida. She had tricked Thomas by telling him that I was coming too. As it became clear to him that I was not going he had to be dragged to the car as he cried, “But I don’t want to leave my daddy.” I waited until they pulled out and then I cried too. How I cried. I didn’t know how to stop. Thomas had given me a charge as he visited me that day. “Here daddy,” he said. “Here is this baby catfish I caught. Will you take care of him for me?” He had caught a little 2 inch catfish fry from a pond where he was playing. “Of course I’ll take care of him,” I answered. I took the little fry and put him in my 50 gallon aquarium tank. Since the little fish was the last thing Thomas gave to me I wanted to love that little fish as though he were my son. I knew I would seldom get to see my children again. They were going to be 2800 miles away from me and accessible only by a plane ride that I would not be able to afford unless my fortunes changed.
I took all the other fish out of the aquarium and gave the little catfish fry all the room he wanted. At first I fed him fish food, then little pellets as he grew. He got to know me and let me feed him by my hand. By the time he was 4 inches he would let me pet him as I fed him. I loved that little fish because he was my son’s last charge to me. He was happy in my tank and grew so well. Soon he was 6 inches long, then 8. I could look into his eyes and watch him look back at me. But I knew the time was coming for me to release him into some nearby lake where he could have a life of his own. I am going to say this just once: Every sentient being is Divine. There is no such thing as just an animal or just a fish!
A Course in Miracles teaches us that the Son of God is not one person. The Son of God is the Sonship and contains within it all of God’s creations, everything that has come from His extension of Love. Students of the Course understand that the Sonship contains within it all of our brothers, but do you understand that some of our brothers have fins and fur! All Sentient beings, every blade of grass and every grain of sand are a part of the Sonship.The Course teaches further that we are connected with everything. “How holy is the smallest grain of sand, when it is recognized as being part of the completed picture of God’s Son!” (T-28.IV.9:4). And again, “The forms the broken pieces seem to take mean nothing. For the whole is in each one. And every aspect of the Son of God is just the same as every other part” (T-28.IV.9:5-7). If God is in you, look at the world and you will see God. God is in everything I see because God is in me. The Christ is in everything!
In the Gospel of Thomas, Jesus said, “I am the light that is over all things. I am all: all came forth from me, and all attained to me. Split a piece of wood, and I am there. Pick up a stone, and you will find me there.”
Should it be strange then that I could look into the eyes of a little bullhead catfish and see the Christ? How I loved that little fish! I loved him because Thomas gave him to me and asked me to care for him.
The day came for his big release. I took him from the big aquarium and put him into a small portable one and carried him to my sports car. It was just a five minute drive to the lake. I drove with one hand and steadied the portable little aquarium with the other. I drove slowly so as not to slosh the water. I told him where we were going and that he would like it when we got there. I had picked a time when the lake should be devoid of people. We arrived and I gently carried the portable aquarium to the edge of the water. I told him that this was his time for freedom. I opened the lid and gently slid him into the shallow water of the lake. He looked around and at first did not understand this big “aquarium” he had been released into. Then there came a moment and he “got it.” It dawned on him that he was free. He started to swim out into the deeper water, but then he stopped, turned around and looked at me with eyes which by now I knew, and said, “Thank you.” And then he swam out into that lake. Know God and you must love your brother. Love connects us all in the Divine Mind. And some of the tales of the Christ are tails of the Christ.
The Lies we tell ourselves hold us back. These lies seemed like truths back in childhood, but as we grew and progressed we didn’t revise these untruths. They hold us back and keep us enslaved to the past. We keep our lies in the secret most part of our minds so that we cannot look at them. But they carry out their effects anyway, like a malicious script in our computer. As a voice teacher, I have discovered that when people come to me with some deep trouble in singing, it is because they have believed a lie, somewhere, sometime, about their voice or themselves. At the heart of all these little lies is the one huge lie that says, “God cannot use me for anything! I am just…a baker, an insurance salesman, a grade school teacher, a laborer.” We believe our social roles ARE us and we tell ourselves the big lie, “I am not capable of fulfilling God’s function for my life!” Whatever that is, and we as social egos don’t know. If you were told that God’s function for all of us is to be the Light of the world, would you believe that? That is something you would have to discover, isn’t it? You would have to look deeply into yourself to know that, and then you would have to get rid of all those lies you have kept hidden. For that is in truth the function we all share as God’s function for us. No other function can we substitute and be happy. Start a journal and write down all the lies you have told yourself or believed from others. You will find that it is a long list. And then say, “I am the Light of the world. That is my only function. That is why I am here.” (ACIM, WB Lesson 63)
Sacred peace fills this space, and all fear is abandoned.
In clear Light I stand, longing only to see your face and touch the hem of your garment. In those deep eyes the love of the world I see, you who are brother to me and lover of my soul. In your Presence no-thing can intrude upon a sacred heart. Glory is as Love shines. Be blessed by our praise as we glory in your embrace. Oh blessed Jesus, lover of my soul, tears of joy line your face as your brothers come to you and my heart is filled with Love’s Presence. All blocks are removed. All hindrances put aside. All illusions healed. With clarity do we look upon you and see in you the holiness of the world. Now do we remember our ancient Home. Now have we reached the end of Jacob’s Ladder and stand with you before the gates of Heaven. Now does the Father reach down to raise His Son back to the Home he never in truth left. Now all heaven sings with gratefulness for the awakening of God’s Son. Our Song is heard in praise of the Love that we are as extensions of the Father. And now is the Father’s voice heard:
“Let this be our place. Our Light will shine in this stillness. Our Song is all that will be heard.”
Stillness is required to experience the Now, and in the Now, in the presence of that Stillness, I am not a body. I am free for I am just as God created me. The situation I am in gives me most of my lessons. I have a body which believes it is deathly sick. A lot of my time is spent in finding a way to do something in spite of my body’s belief in its sickness. The other day I was fighting so hard to breathe. I could not stop coughing and yet I needed to go to the grocery store. I headed over there coughing all the way. While in the store I tried mightily to suppress the cough with limited success. There is a young lady there who wants to be an actor but she is stuck in HER situation at the IGA. I always talk to her and try to lift her spirits. She was at the checkout when I brought my small bag of groceries. I engaged her in conversation and said something that boosted her spirit. I could see and feel that happening, and in that moment of boosting her spirit I was NOT a body and there was no sickness. As I left the store I saw a young man pathetically begging. I went over to him and gave him some money and then I started to walk away. But spirit said, “Go back and talk to him.” I did that and I saw his spirit rise. In that moment I was not a body and I was not sick. Liberation comes in the holy instant when we choose to believe that someone else’s interest is our own. Then the miracle comes…and I am not a body.
What do you have to give to the world? When one or two have found stillness, they discover their virtue, their goodness, their gratefulness for being. These two have found something to give to the world, their Light and the world needs Light like a dream needs awakening. One person who has seen his own Light can enlighten the world. But our sleeping brothers do not care about giving anything to the world. “Don’t you know I have my problems, man?” “It’s dog eat dog out their.” “The rent is too damn high.” “My job takes all my energy.” “I pay my taxes and that’s enough.” They have not experienced stillness and the Peace of God, nor their virtue and goodness. So they have nothing to give. Tara Singh told his students, “many of our brothers are deeply asleep. That’s OK. Let them sleep. They will all awaken.”
How would you avoid an immense confusion? This is part of an ancient Zen saying, a koan, “If you work on your mind with your mind how will you avoid an immense confusion?” The “mind” it is talking about is your perception here on earth, your “earthly mind.” The Course explains this koan more thoroughly. There is a lot of material in the Course that is Buddhistic so it is not a long leap to see the Course as a further explanation of this koan. The Course says that every mind and matter on the earth, in the universe, is a part of a Whole Mind which is divine, eternal. But our minds seem to have split into many and projected this world of dualism. So we believe we are separate from each other and from God, and then everyone has opinions about everything, and we call that “knowledge.” If we try to use our opinions as though they were divine truth, how indeed will we avoid an immense confusion. This confused mind is called an “insane” mind in the Course. The insane mind does not even know what eternal truths are! It does not know virtue. It does not know the Love which only knows to give. Not one of the divine facts that are in God’s universe of Spirit is known by the insane mind. Can you imagine that? It would be sort of like being born as a human but thinking with all dead seriousness that you are a chicken! We don’t know heaven’s truth of who we are, and that is all there is to know. But there is truth to be found in stillness, in the holy instant of “now.” Nature knows such peace it can give you stillness. A child has peace to give to the world. Every child brings heaven’s Light. Will we learn from the child? Will we reverence the child as a gift from God and learn his truths? You see, you thought that you needed a child for some reason of your own. Maybe it was just ego need. “This is MY child. It belongs to me.” But God has sent that child to bless you with heaven’s remembrance. S/he whom you regard as “yours” to mold in your own confusion has been sent to give you Eternal Truths that you don’t even know exist. So you can’t reverence the child. You cannot raise a child of God because you cannot learn from the child, It is an ego thing. You say to the child, “You will think what I think. You will believe what I tell you. You will go to the church where we go, and you better believe.” So you invade the child’s holiness. You assault God by refusing to reverence the child and learn from him or her. HOW CAN YOU AVOID AN IMMENSE CONFUSION?
Jesus described his relationship to his students (which is what the word ‘disciples’ means) as that of being “friends.” He even told them, “Don’t call me master. Just let us be friends.” And this friendship that he spoke of was Oneness. “I pray Father that they be One even as you are I are One.” So Jesus spoke of “friendship” as Oneness, joined minds, joined purpose, joined in Eternal Truth, not man’s perception which is always based on the past and on duality. So do you have any people you could regard as “friends” in the way Jesus has explained? How is it then, that if they are your friends, you never give love to them? You just send them a Christmas card or a birthday card, but you feel totally content to live your worldly life without the urge to give love to your friends. Love knows only to give. So many of us have gotten tired of the world’s substitute for real friendship. Many of us now want to join in mind and find Oneness, which doesn’t extinguish anyone but fills all who are joined with the same Love which Jesus said he had with the Father. So it would be there for us too, wouldn’t it? It would come from your well-spring of your true being, wouldn’t it? And all you have to do to find it is to discover who you are at the most basic, Eternal level. ACIM, the Course, says, “I am as God created me.” Do you know yourself as God created you? Then you would also know that you are not a body, you are a mind and part of the One Divine mind that the Course calls the Son of God or the Sonship. “I am not a body. I am free, for I am just as God created me!” Minds can join while bodies cannot. Oh, they try, but they cannot in truth join. So to join in mind with someone and learn “friendship” you would need first to offer a little willingness, to agree that someone else’s interest is in your interest too. That would be the beginning of joining and Love’s Present in that moment of choice would do the rest! So do you have any real friends? Or do you just have the world’s substitute for “friends?” The world’s friends are possessed of an hallucination of separateness. “It’s dog eat dog out here in the real world….the rent is too damn high…gotta get a job…it’s all about jobs.” So this hallucination of separateness keeps you from having REAL friends, as Jesus taught. REAL friends would be of the Eternal unchangeable world of God, wouldn’t they? They wouldn’t be of the insane world. Mr. Krishnamurti once said, “There are very few people in the world who have an inkling of the insanity that has overtaken the world.” And he spoke True words. He thought with God’s thoughts! You see this is so basic that true Love only knows to give. It does not know to take. It is assured by universal law that those who give will also receive, but Love is not motivated by that. If you give in order to receive, you are a con man. You are manipulating people. How can you know the Oneness of “friendship” that way? You can’t! You are as curiously crazy as a child born into this world as a human being yet he seriously believes he is a chicken! What can come of such insanity? Certainly not friendship! So then many have given up and just accepted the world’s substitute for friendship, which is usury. “I agree to use you for a while and you agree to use me for a while. And then some silly opinion is strong enough for us to break our friendship! Can you see the madness of it? Aren’t you tired enough of it to investigate real friendship? What do you have to lose?
I admit that I have few REAL friends. But I have some with whom I am joined in mind. Their interests are mine and we draw from the same well-spring of the Love that we both are made of. That joining inspires me only to give to them. Love knows only to give. Today is my birthday and today I will give, inspired by my friends with whom I experience Love in their presence. Blocks and barricades are gone. “Feelings” cannot be hurt. There is just One Love, One mind, and friendship.
How to Raise a Cat of God….
The process would really be very much alike to raising any child of God. The Cat is, after all, my brother in the Sonship too! The cat comes straight from heaven knowing only love and wanting to share it with the world. You say, “Man you have flipped your wig this time.” ACIM is very plain in telling us that our furry, finny, feathery, leathery brothers are a part of the Son of God. It is possible, even necessary, to join in mind with them as well as our two-footed neighbors. So the kitten comes straight from heaven and would offer the world love. My wonderful cat, Blanche, come to me when she was just four weeks old. She knew only love and protection from her feline parents during that time. When I brought her home with me, I reverenced her. I did not treat her “like a cat” and put limitations on her. I gave her space. I never taught her fear and she never learned it. Instead she taught herself music as she would come into my voice lessons and patiently listen to the singers. She developed discrimination, even personal taste in music. She developed a preference for early Italian song, Handel, Mozart and Verdi and could discriminate between excellent performances and poor ones. Instead of teaching her she is a cat I taught her that she is a child of God and that I treasure her as God does. I have protected her from harm and the ways of the world. The result has been that we have joined in mind and we experience Love in each others presence. If we can do that with a little feline brother, surely we can do it with human babies and raise children of God rather than of the earth.
The Terror of Love
A sharing with Joseph Shore
Let Love replace terror in our hearts. Let us return in the mind to that time we chose fear and victimization, and let us choose again for the Love that we are.
Have you ever been afraid of Love? Perhaps you have experienced Love in someone’s presence and then backed away out of fear. Perhaps someone has loved you and you backed away from the experience. Why do we do that? It is our unspoken, dirty little secret that we are terrified of Love. We search for and believe we need it but we are terrified of finding it! Buried deep within the human psyche is the belief that Love is not trustworthy, that it could turn on us at any moment and become hate and punishment. What is the origin of this insanity? Why does love hurt so much? The child asks himself that when his parents abuse him. The abused child is caught in a contradiction. He came from heaven, knowing only love and wanting to share it with his parents. But the parents were terrified of love and could not learn from the child. Instead, they acted out their own fear of love by abusing the child. Whether the abuse is formally recognized or goes on in “normal” families, it would appear to destroy the child’s trust in love. Looking at the affects of clinical abuse can enhance the picture of the world-wide terror of love.
For almost two years, 1987 through June 1988, I was a Social Worker in New York City’s Department of Child Welfare, known as Special Services for Children. For the first year I was a Protective Diagnostic Caseworker investigating cases of abuse and neglect, and training foster parents. The second year I was an “Under-Care” Social Worker with St. Vincent’s Services for Children, a part of the city system of foster care. I had around twenty children on my case load who had been remanded to the custody of the Commissioner of Social Services because of abuse and/or neglect. My duties involved counseling the abusive parents; finding treatment programs for them to enable their child to be returned to them; monitoring their progress in such therapy and monitoring monthly or weekly visits with their children; finding the appropriate psychiatrist or psychologist to treat the abused child in my custody; writing psycho-social assessments to refer the children to that psychiatrist; working together with that psychiatrist or psychologist in the treatment of the children; and general substitute parenting activities towards the child.
“There is a great need for all involved with the problem of abuse to understand and empathize with the notion that those who suffer in this way do not have the average inner life. In any relationship, the abused/abusive person tends to return to and relive the world in which he/she was raised. This world is aptly referred to by the acronym WAR, or the World of Abnormal Rearing (quoting Helfer, R.: Developmental deficits which limit interpersonal skills, in The Battered Child, Ed. 4, Chicago, University of Chicago Press, 1987). The abused person lives in an inner world of disordered attachments. He/She is compelled to repeat behavior over and over again unless someone not caught in the pattern intervenes with understanding and empathy to help them work through these attachments and leave them behind. Freud would have called this ‘repetition compulsion,’ repeating an inner dilemma externally rather than being able to work in through within. It is an attempt to master the inner problem through getting rid of what is felt as unbearable feelings. It has the force of an addiction, in the sense that it is an automatic return to the bad-parent-bad-child emotional interaction internalized during childhood…In the inner world of the abused/abuser at the moment of abuse, the child is only seen as a part of the parental inner world, I.e., the personification of the accusatory parent that calls for revengeful behavior, or the guilty, inadequate, enraged self that is deserving of punishment…Instead of seeing their child as a separate individual, they perceive him as part of their own inner interactive bad-parent-bad-child image. His presentation of self as needy, excited, curious, hungry, hurt, or active may be transformed in their perceptions, and the child is a pawn in the inner battle. In the child, we see there are external signs of this inner pawnship. These are behaviours developed to ensure survival in an environment perceived as an evil necessity. They are usually extreme behaviors in contrast to the more moderate responses of children in good enough surroundings. The child may appear: (1) Excessively shy, compliant, and fearful; (2) Aggressive, unpredictable, and provocative; (3) Stupid, dull and physically flaccid due to turning inward away from a nonunderstanding environment where spontaneity is dangerous and failure means punishment…However necessary these behaviors may be to ensure survival, they are antithetical to the exercise of human skills essential to optimal development…Without the chance to develop these skills, the abused child grows up externally but still functions as a survivor in a totalitarian universe. He can often get by until a mature developmental step is required, such as intimacy with another person and/or parenting a child. Then the inner world of disordered attachments rises again to the surface and the repetition compulsion begins again” (Ann Williamson Bird, MSN, RN, CS, “The Child Within: The Cycle of Abuse,” in Missing/Abused, edited by Vincent Fontana, M.D., Fall 1987, Volume 3, No.3).
Psychological Maltreatment of Children and Youth, edited by Marla Brassard, Robert Germain, and Stuart N. Hart (New York: Pergamon Books, 1987,). refers to the Minnesota Mother-Child Interaction Project (by Egeland and Erickson). Psychologist Elizabeth Navarre is quoted in this volume as saying “The Minnesota Mother-Child Interaction Project..is the only longitudinal study known to this author that carefully divides its sample on the basis of types of abuse and neglect and provides an appropriate control group”(. p. 49).
Within this study (The Minnesota Mother-Child Interaction Project) I note specifically that “children whose mothers were hostile, rejecting, and verbally abusive looked much the same as the children in the physical abuse group. In general these children were angry and non-compliant” (Ibid., p. 114). The study noted that “at 42 months in a problem-solving task alone, these children were hyperactive and distractible, presented a considerable amount of negative affect and demonstrated poor self control and low self-esteem” (Ibid. p. 114).
The National Center on Child Abuse and Neglect and the American Humane Association has developed more specific definitions of psychological maltreatment for the purpose of gathering data to clarify the incidence of maltreatment nationally.” Among the categories identified are “verbal and emotional assault” (Ibid. p. 5). “It defines emotional abuse as ‘active, intentional berating, disparaging or other abusive behaviour toward the child which impacts upon the emotional well-being of the child” (Ibid. p. 5).
When we look at A Course in Miracles we see a sophisticated model system of psychology as well as a spiritual system that goes far beyond clinical psychology. From the point of view of the Course, we all carry around inside of us scars from our terror of love and our fear that love is untrustworthy. The clinical cases only show us what we all feel in a primal way.
Even if you think you had a good childhood and escaped this circle, you still have this primal terror of love. Where does it come from? We know It comes down to us through myths that are deeply a part of the social/religious structure of our society. But the Course takes us all the way back to those myths and offers us a new myth which has the power within it to lead us out of the terror of love. First let us look at the deceptive myth we have all believed. It is found in the Bible, in Genesis, as the myth of creation. We are told that an all-wise, all-loving, all-knowing god named Yahweh or Jehovah, created the world in six days, out of nothing, through the “Poof” method. “Poof” and it was there. He created man out of nothing too and created woman from a rib of the man. He put them into a garden of paradise. He walked with them in the garden. (Yahweh is apparently a man for he has feet.) He told them they could do anything they wanted except they were not to eat from the tree of knowledge in the middle of the garden. His creations from nothing are said to be innocent and naked. But Eve gets tempted by a talking snake and eats of the forbidden fruit and manipulates Adam to eat of it. Yahweh has obviously never taken a course in child rearing or he would have made a safe place for his children rather than exposing them to temptation. What foolish parent would tell his toddlers, “Now you can play with anything in this room but you must never stick your fingers in the wall electrical sockets?” He knows that what is forbidden will draw a toddler right to it, so he puts up electrical guards on the sockets and doesn’t say a word about them. It certainly seems that this Yahweh fellow is setting up his kids for a fall. After all, what is a snake doing in a nursery anyway? Yahweh needs to be reported to social services! He allows a snake in the nursery, a talking snake at that. What toddler would not be confused by a talking snake? So they eat the apple or pomegranate and everything changes. Yahweh turns into a monster. He shows his real colors. Instead of being unconditional love he does the most horrible thing that can be done to a child. He changes into a punishing monster. He kicks Adam and Eve out of paradise, seals the door so they can never get back in, sends them out into the world with all this guilt and punishes them further by taking away sufficiency, so they will always experience lack. Adam now has to find a job and work by the sweat of his brow. Eve is condemned to the pain of childbirth. They are both released into a world of pain, sorrow, limitation, sin and death, and they carry this Terror of Love with them, along with their original guilt for making daddy so mad that he abused them!!!!! This myth is the formal expression of the primal Terror of Love we all experience. The Bible, then, is the formal book designed to enhance these lies. Whether you ever went to a church or are a devout atheist you carry these lies around with you. The myth has come to you in society and child rearing.
Now the Course in Miracles comes into all this mess and offers a new myth of creation that can lead the mind away from dysfunctional old Yahweh and his lies of sin, guilt, death, and the Terror of Love. This kind of a “myth” is a mental device which is used to point the mind in a different direction. Like all spiritual myths it says that reality is “sort of like this.” The myth is needed as a mental device to approach ourselves and the world differently.
In the Course’s view of reality there is a world of Oneness, Heaven, Mind, God and His One Son, which is the sum of all His extensions of His Love. This is a world of Mind and total oneness. The Course’s myth of world creation says that there crept into the Son’s Mind, the tiny mad idea that He could be different from His Father. Since this could not really happen, it was like a dream the Son fell into. But once he appeared to fall into it, he was an observer, and just as quickly two thoughts came to his mind. One thought, the Course calls the ‘ego,’ said “you have done something terrible. You have really hurt your Father. You should be ashamed, and furthermore, God is not going to let you get away with this. The wages of sin is death.” The other thought that came to the separated mind of the son was “this never happened. Nothing was done. Wake up.” This is the voice of the Holy Spirit, his memory of Truth. The Course calls the council of the ego, the “wrong mind,” and the council of the Holy Spirit, the “right mind.” But the son believed in the ego’s version and experienced guilt. So the separated son now believing he is the ego, runs out of his mind and creates a universe to hide in by projecting the guilt he experiences on to this universe. As he enters this universe he splits into zillions and zillions of pieces, each a hologram of the whole mind, now associated with the ego. But as he projects himself into this illusory universe, he forgets what he has done and who he really is. He creates bodies as places to hide from God and protect his dreamy desire to be an individual, separated, distinct from his Father, and each of these bodies believes in the ego’s lie that the son is now a sinner, guilty and afraid. So he is now in the world thinking he is a body, thinking his senses give him a true picture of reality. But he also carried with him into the dream a faint memory of who he really is. The ego is the wrong mind that he has chosen but the right mind of the Holy Spirit has been carried into the dream too, and it tells the son, “Forgive those who seem to hurt you in this world. Nothing has happened. It is just a dream.” Little by little the separated hologram son begins to listen to his right mind (or not) and forgive. As he does he begins to remember that he is a mind and not a body. Since he is a hologram and carries the whole within him he can go back in the mind where the original mistake took place, the choosing of the ego’s thought system, and he can choose again, this time for his right-minded Holy Spirit. When all of the Sonship has returned to the Holy Spirit, God Himself will reach down and bring us back up to Him. But actually since the Son has been dreaming, it is more like He nudges the Son and says, “Wake up.” Then we are back where we have never left, in a Heaven of Oneness with God and His One Son, the extension of all His Love.
You see the original Terror of Love in our minds is the illusion that comes from the original illusion that the Son could break off from his Father and be something different than the Love He is. We still believe the Ego’s lie that we have hurt God and that God’s Love can turn to wrath against us. That Terror of Love’s mutability into abuse keeps us on guard against experiencing the love that is our natural inheritance. The liberation comes when we can laugh at the tiny mad idea and see that it never in truth happened. Even old Yahweh we can laugh at as a cartoon creature we created from our guilty minds. And so the little lies we were told in childhood we can forgive and let them pass away as so many wisps of vapor. Love is trustworthy and full of wisdom. You need have no terror of what you in truth are. Now are you free of the ancient terror. Now is your brother set free and you with him to experience the Love you searched for so long in a terror that had you both bound in chains.
Now you need look no longer at your little self as something so worth protecting that you would sacrifice your Oneness with God to save it.
Let me personalize that. Now I have no need to keep the little identity of Joseph Shore forever as a defense against Love. Now I can lay down the defense of the body as something I made to replace the Love of God that I am. Now I am so free I stand before the Gates of Heaven with Jesus, reaching out to all my brothers who are climbing back up Jacob’s Ladder. So soon God’s Hand will reach down and lift His son back to his ancient place in Heaven where He must forever be, and we will be Home at last, where we have never left.